If

If... I can make you feel how I feel and vice versa.

No more if.

More and more

One of those days that I feel emotionally overwhelmed about what I have and what I need to work hard for. 

And how short-term minded I have had all along. :')

Start again

As I am sitting on the sofa thinking about how march has been so far, I am in awe what I have done. Travelled to istanbul for one week before I began my new job with a different yet related field to the previous job.

I am still adjusting to the time I need to coax myself to go to bed in order to catch enough rest for the day. You can imagine when you hope for something so bad and finally when it comes, you just can hardly believe that it happened?

Thank you fate or whatever/whoever that made this happen. :')

Second guess

There is something that has been bugging me for some time but that now I really think about it, I am not sure whether I am second guessing too much. Well but it sucks to have to second guess sometimes. That's life, isn't it? (Food for thought)

Anyway I came across this phrase that's says "when you feel like giving up, rmb why you started". I really really hope that the reason is good enough when the time comes the next time round. :)

Another precious cny <3

Lotsa faith

Maybe it is time for me to walk out from my own shadow. Getting me nowhere. Have faith. Lotsa faith.

Kallang trivista

Cannot contain my excitement for the new house although we are currently expecting a cash flow problem when the time comes but well, I guess things will work out!

Took this (imho, gorgeous) photo of the site yesterday. But no, you can't see my flat cos my flat is not facing the mrt track. :) counting my happiness each day while I can. Let's hope that things will only get better :)

Goodbye 2014 :')

Let's just say... The second part of 2014 has been sucky. Really sucky that I still cannot contain my anger and sadness about what happened but I really wanna keep this to myself so pls don't bother asking me what happened.

Anyways. I learnt that we could choose to not be kind and only make the choices that would be beneficial to us and bad for the other(s). But I also learnt that doing that will ultimately equate you as 不忠不孝，不仁不义... Very exaggerated right haha. That's in my humble opinion only anyway. So... Choose to be kind. And also choose to be kind to those who deserve it and those who need it. I have received kind acts from some and I will be forever grateful to. 

Thanks for letting k for letting me know that life can still move on with the setback and that I am not the only one, for letting me know that this is not the end of the world. Thanks p for showering me with acts of kindness and telling me not to give up. Thanks k for being inspirational in realizing your dreams and talking to me like I am not a handicapped and that I am normal.

As for the others, esp I know who, I hope that one day you know how I felt or feel the same kind of feelings that I felt. I am trying not to blame you but whenever I think about the under table tactics that you are doing, I can't help but sigh at your lack of empathy and shortsightedness.

This year has been a bad one but I can't move on from this. Kind of struck but I hope I will see the light at the end of the tunnel soon. Light... Pls shine on me soon hahaha...

Thanks to m for keeping me sane and having something to look forward to. My alarm tags remind me about what I should look forward to in life.

I choose to be thankful for the good things that happened. Thank you 2014 we can say goodbye now :')