Jan-Feb19
D & S resigned back to back. I have seen it coming and I have done what I could. Grateful for the remaining team members C & S who were supporting otherwise maybe I would have raised my white flag too.
First Chinese New Year for baby and our family have been really accommodating to our needs :)
Mar-Apr19
What happened? Lol.
May19
My birthday staycation at Sentosa!
Jun19
Made some plans but ...
Jul19
Lost. You.
Grieving and healing in process. <3
未你
Saturday, July 27, 2019
2018 in summary
So it is July 2019 today and I just remembered that I still have a post for year 2018 in my draft. Ok shall do a quick summary and post it out!
—-> Almost one month of 2019 has passed and I should really take some time to note down year 2018!
Having a baby is definitely a life-changer and I am glad that we survived!
Jan18
Morning sickness began the next day after our Grand Hyatt staycation. I remember that I vomited all day long. After breakfast/lunch/dinner, with the lack of or too much of food. Taking small meals is the best advice that I have. Fruits for fibre for constipation. I can’t remember much of Jan except that I was trying to read up on pregnancy and living for the weekend to rest for my baby in my tummy.
Feb18
Announced that I was pregnant during Chinese New Year period. Everyone is excited! First year giving hangbao.
Mar18
One year wedding anniversary means one year of living together. It is ridiculous to think about the things we argued about before.
Apr18
Can’t recall now
May18
We had a birthday staycation for my bday at Oasia Novena hotel. It is nice to just chill and swim and chill at the hotel lounge with free decaf mocha (I was pregnant).
Jun18
Mad rush for my new portfolio but we survived!
Jul18
Preparing for my ML, so many frustrating moments.
Aug18
Counting down to the baby’s arrival each day. We are v fortunate to have a smooth delivery :)
Sep18
Learnt to take care of baby on my own after the confinement nanny left. Of all things, I think the most difficult part is the lack of sleep followed by the breastfeeding arrangements. Looking back, I am glad that I continued until May19 due to the office politics for the office move. I tried my best so no regrets.
Oct-Nov18
Even with the frustration on some days when the baby refused to cooperate, overall I am grateful for the ML for me to take care of my baby on my own. I wouldn’t exchange this for anything else in the world because my world has changed after her arrival. <3
Dec18
Back to work.
未你
—-> Almost one month of 2019 has passed and I should really take some time to note down year 2018!
Having a baby is definitely a life-changer and I am glad that we survived!
Jan18
Morning sickness began the next day after our Grand Hyatt staycation. I remember that I vomited all day long. After breakfast/lunch/dinner, with the lack of or too much of food. Taking small meals is the best advice that I have. Fruits for fibre for constipation. I can’t remember much of Jan except that I was trying to read up on pregnancy and living for the weekend to rest for my baby in my tummy.
Feb18
Announced that I was pregnant during Chinese New Year period. Everyone is excited! First year giving hangbao.
Mar18
One year wedding anniversary means one year of living together. It is ridiculous to think about the things we argued about before.
Apr18
Can’t recall now
May18
We had a birthday staycation for my bday at Oasia Novena hotel. It is nice to just chill and swim and chill at the hotel lounge with free decaf mocha (I was pregnant).
Jun18
Mad rush for my new portfolio but we survived!
Jul18
Preparing for my ML, so many frustrating moments.
Aug18
Counting down to the baby’s arrival each day. We are v fortunate to have a smooth delivery :)
Sep18
Learnt to take care of baby on my own after the confinement nanny left. Of all things, I think the most difficult part is the lack of sleep followed by the breastfeeding arrangements. Looking back, I am glad that I continued until May19 due to the office politics for the office move. I tried my best so no regrets.
Oct-Nov18
Even with the frustration on some days when the baby refused to cooperate, overall I am grateful for the ML for me to take care of my baby on my own. I wouldn’t exchange this for anything else in the world because my world has changed after her arrival. <3
Dec18
Back to work.
未你
Thursday, August 9, 2018
August 2018
Today is National Day and much anticipation for the baby in my tummy (okay, not my tummy, but you get my point...) to pop on National Day. But as fate has it planned, we can’t decide some things in life, especially when we decide to go with natural delivery.
Am I prepared for the baby’s arrival? Yes and No.
Hospital bag: checked
Baby’s cot: checked
Ready for baby’s delivery? No. I guess no amount of time will prepare me enough.
So the past 1-2 weeks have been amazing because I slept more than 10hours everyday, as if saving my sleep for the baby’s arrival.
Dear baby, thank you for entertaining me with your kicks, particularly during times I disturb you to ensure that you are alright inside me. I look forward to see you again tomorrow during my checkup :)
Till then. Tata. :)
未你
Am I prepared for the baby’s arrival? Yes and No.
Hospital bag: checked
Baby’s cot: checked
Ready for baby’s delivery? No. I guess no amount of time will prepare me enough.
So the past 1-2 weeks have been amazing because I slept more than 10hours everyday, as if saving my sleep for the baby’s arrival.
Dear baby, thank you for entertaining me with your kicks, particularly during times I disturb you to ensure that you are alright inside me. I look forward to see you again tomorrow during my checkup :)
Till then. Tata. :)
未你
Thursday, July 20, 2017
It gets better
And so, I feel like I am in my comfort zone.
Left office at 8+ but feeling glad that I am working with my current team. A few roll eyes moment today but it becomes funny when you have colleagues who laugh it though with. Grateful and thankful.
So new projects are in the pipeline; Deadlines, additions to my portfolio, new colleagues to work with... I think next year is going to be another challenging year and it starts now. We need to kick start the meetings, oh well change is the only constant. Let's hope that I will survive.
Work aside, I went back to my mum's place for dinner and bringing bread, onion and sweet potato home. Yayyy!
Okay I need to prepare to sleep soon after I reach home later because 8.30am meeting tmr.
And to my always-and-forever, fortunate to be married to him. So this is how honeymoon marriage life feels like.
未你
Left office at 8+ but feeling glad that I am working with my current team. A few roll eyes moment today but it becomes funny when you have colleagues who laugh it though with. Grateful and thankful.
So new projects are in the pipeline; Deadlines, additions to my portfolio, new colleagues to work with... I think next year is going to be another challenging year and it starts now. We need to kick start the meetings, oh well change is the only constant. Let's hope that I will survive.
Work aside, I went back to my mum's place for dinner and bringing bread, onion and sweet potato home. Yayyy!
Okay I need to prepare to sleep soon after I reach home later because 8.30am meeting tmr.
And to my always-and-forever, fortunate to be married to him. So this is how honeymoon marriage life feels like.
未你
Monday, July 10, 2017
Married Life & Living Together
Fourth month into marriage and living together, things are getting better!
Moving out was so difficult for me emotionally! I cried the first week because I miss living with my parents and siblings. It also was not easy to get used to doing housework. I knew that this would be difficult but I did not expect it to be this way. "Embrace change" was the slogan haha machiam some election. We have our differences in our lifestyle and they are all subjective and correct and wrong could not be justified. I had two rage mode moment and now that I think back, I was so wrong to allow my outburst of emotions :(
So today is a random day I felt blessed for having my Husband. Woke up by his side and he fried cheese omelette as our breakfast. I can do with just plain bread + milk + oat but he likes to cook and often quoting "一日之计在于晨".
Grateful for you on good days and on bad days, but maybe not on days we have our differences =P
未你
Moving out was so difficult for me emotionally! I cried the first week because I miss living with my parents and siblings. It also was not easy to get used to doing housework. I knew that this would be difficult but I did not expect it to be this way. "Embrace change" was the slogan haha machiam some election. We have our differences in our lifestyle and they are all subjective and correct and wrong could not be justified. I had two rage mode moment and now that I think back, I was so wrong to allow my outburst of emotions :(
So today is a random day I felt blessed for having my Husband. Woke up by his side and he fried cheese omelette as our breakfast. I can do with just plain bread + milk + oat but he likes to cook and often quoting "一日之计在于晨".
Grateful for you on good days and on bad days, but maybe not on days we have our differences =P
未你
Friday, January 27, 2017
2016 in summary
So many frustrating moments this year and I am glad that I made through. Also, on a personal note, I have married my best friend <3
Jan16
Started the year with a new job, with a crazy workload but the nicest buddy ever. Kindness that I have never met before.
Feb16
Work was so bad, colleague in my team quitted before her 3 months was up and I was left with another colleague and my boss. It was such a stressful month. And Chinese New Year. Have to savour the second last year of red packet collecting. Oh and cupcakes from Sm for vday even though I told him that I had no time to prepare anything for him and when he asked me, I told him something that he baked would be good haha because he has never baked for me before.
Mar16
Gown fitting awwww. It is starting to feel like we are going to get married hehe. And there was the Germany conference means one/two week away. Time difference is the difficult part. And at that time , it didn't cross our mind that his internship would happen. Worked day and night for "something" at work and glad that I made it through. Colleague from another team joined my team.
Apr16
Key collection and roll the pineapple! Then met two ID before deciding to engage one of them. Because we didn't want to do much so since we received good reviews from the one we engaged, we decided to go ahead. My marble print, his matt finish tiles <3
May16
Last exam for CPA. Before my bday. River Safari with family.
Jun16
Pre-wedding photoshoot and major purchase for the house renovation. Our KDK ceiling fan <3 Dreams come true for me to take our PWS in JJC after dating for almost 10years. Filed for marriage.
Jul16
Customised our wardrobe. Selected photos from our PWS. Tapping rod to test the tiles omg frustrating to iron out the problems.
Aug16
NDP preview followed by Mayday concert! First concert. I am glad that I didn't need to join in the shouting/screaming/jumping. Haha am quite chill when I watch concert and happy that I don't need to shout/scream/jump just because other people do. It was definitely a good one!
Sep16
Signed my life away... is that what people say? Anyway I was so nervous that day, cannot smile properly. Then we flew to Tokyo :) however, the same thing kept bugging me, that our Long Distance Relationship was going to start. Nevertheless, the Ryokan stay was sooooo good! Pampered. The other attractions were awesome too. We only travelled in Tokyo and blown away by their... toilets lol.
Oct16
Counted every weekend on the number of weeks left before Sm returned. :'(
Met up with friends! So glad to have them. Booked my air tickets to Osaka/Kyoto
Nov16
Osaka/Kyoto trip! Short but fulfilling trip. Went for my (much delayed) orientation. Started packing my mum house for renovation. Packing things which we never knew existed. Seeing things which my parents collected and pieces of memories of my parents
Dec16
Actual day gown selection! <3 tiles popped up at parents house means major renovation to be done. Christmas Eve stayover with the group, as if nothing has changed over the years. Tile selection for my parents house. New year countdown bbq.
Took my NYE and CNYE to write the above. May the upcoming year be a good one!
未你
Jan16
Started the year with a new job, with a crazy workload but the nicest buddy ever. Kindness that I have never met before.
Feb16
Work was so bad, colleague in my team quitted before her 3 months was up and I was left with another colleague and my boss. It was such a stressful month. And Chinese New Year. Have to savour the second last year of red packet collecting. Oh and cupcakes from Sm for vday even though I told him that I had no time to prepare anything for him and when he asked me, I told him something that he baked would be good haha because he has never baked for me before.
Mar16
Gown fitting awwww. It is starting to feel like we are going to get married hehe. And there was the Germany conference means one/two week away. Time difference is the difficult part. And at that time , it didn't cross our mind that his internship would happen. Worked day and night for "something" at work and glad that I made it through. Colleague from another team joined my team.
Apr16
Key collection and roll the pineapple! Then met two ID before deciding to engage one of them. Because we didn't want to do much so since we received good reviews from the one we engaged, we decided to go ahead. My marble print, his matt finish tiles <3
May16
Last exam for CPA. Before my bday. River Safari with family.
Jun16
Pre-wedding photoshoot and major purchase for the house renovation. Our KDK ceiling fan <3 Dreams come true for me to take our PWS in JJC after dating for almost 10years. Filed for marriage.
Jul16
Customised our wardrobe. Selected photos from our PWS. Tapping rod to test the tiles omg frustrating to iron out the problems.
Aug16
NDP preview followed by Mayday concert! First concert. I am glad that I didn't need to join in the shouting/screaming/jumping. Haha am quite chill when I watch concert and happy that I don't need to shout/scream/jump just because other people do. It was definitely a good one!
Sep16
Signed my life away... is that what people say? Anyway I was so nervous that day, cannot smile properly. Then we flew to Tokyo :) however, the same thing kept bugging me, that our Long Distance Relationship was going to start. Nevertheless, the Ryokan stay was sooooo good! Pampered. The other attractions were awesome too. We only travelled in Tokyo and blown away by their... toilets lol.
Oct16
Counted every weekend on the number of weeks left before Sm returned. :'(
Met up with friends! So glad to have them. Booked my air tickets to Osaka/Kyoto
Nov16
Osaka/Kyoto trip! Short but fulfilling trip. Went for my (much delayed) orientation. Started packing my mum house for renovation. Packing things which we never knew existed. Seeing things which my parents collected and pieces of memories of my parents
Dec16
Actual day gown selection! <3 tiles popped up at parents house means major renovation to be done. Christmas Eve stayover with the group, as if nothing has changed over the years. Tile selection for my parents house. New year countdown bbq.
Took my NYE and CNYE to write the above. May the upcoming year be a good one!
未你
Friday, January 1, 2016
2015 in summary
I need to write this down before I forget and this is some kind of closure of myself! So here goes:
January 2015: Staycation with colleagues at MBS. Adventure cove with bf as part of the 100th monthsary celebration. Crab eating and received a sunflower on 100th month. Farewell dinner for a colleague at the end of the month.
February 2015: Tendered and worked very hard to clear my work. So touched by some of the kind messages I have received. So awkward on my last day.
March 2015: Travelled with bf to Istanbul. So glad that I have decided to go even though air ticket was expensive because I couldn't confirm my availability earlier. It was an enriching experience and I realized that I really love to travel. It was such an eye-opener and by far, the most life-changing trip that I have taken. USS with bf, this time more prepared for rides and selfie hehe.
April/May 2015: Tulipmania - so pretty!! Rare opportunity when I travelled with my mum and she enjoyed it too. Breakup friendship with the closest friend in the group. Heartbreaking feeling. And it is time I let it go now! Best for all of us I guess.
May 2015: Bird Park for bday! So tired at the end of the day but glad to have spent some family time.
June/July: I have no recollection haha.
August 2015: Bf's traveled to NYC and Canada and omg the time difference!! I have full respect for couples who can endure long distance relationship! I am so envious of my bf's travel and at the same time happy that he travelled because it has been another enriching trip for him!
September 2015: First staycation with only bf and he pop-ed the question ^^. Most memorable moment for the year.
October 2015: CPA exam I was so scared!!
November 2015: D&D
December 2015: Staycation with the usual group for the 10th time! Park avenue at Rochester this time! I like the proximity to Star Vista and the fact that there is a induction cooker completed with pots and pans meant that we can have instant noodles in the middle of the night! Ended December on the right note with work (lol), BBQ in the drizzle and count down with a friend's place.
May year 2016 be a good year with no heartbreak!
Year 2016 will be the most exciting year thus far and looking forward! <3
January 2015: Staycation with colleagues at MBS. Adventure cove with bf as part of the 100th monthsary celebration. Crab eating and received a sunflower on 100th month. Farewell dinner for a colleague at the end of the month.
February 2015: Tendered and worked very hard to clear my work. So touched by some of the kind messages I have received. So awkward on my last day.
March 2015: Travelled with bf to Istanbul. So glad that I have decided to go even though air ticket was expensive because I couldn't confirm my availability earlier. It was an enriching experience and I realized that I really love to travel. It was such an eye-opener and by far, the most life-changing trip that I have taken. USS with bf, this time more prepared for rides and selfie hehe.
April/May 2015: Tulipmania - so pretty!! Rare opportunity when I travelled with my mum and she enjoyed it too. Breakup friendship with the closest friend in the group. Heartbreaking feeling. And it is time I let it go now! Best for all of us I guess.
May 2015: Bird Park for bday! So tired at the end of the day but glad to have spent some family time.
June/July: I have no recollection haha.
August 2015: Bf's traveled to NYC and Canada and omg the time difference!! I have full respect for couples who can endure long distance relationship! I am so envious of my bf's travel and at the same time happy that he travelled because it has been another enriching trip for him!
September 2015: First staycation with only bf and he pop-ed the question ^^. Most memorable moment for the year.
October 2015: CPA exam I was so scared!!
November 2015: D&D
December 2015: Staycation with the usual group for the 10th time! Park avenue at Rochester this time! I like the proximity to Star Vista and the fact that there is a induction cooker completed with pots and pans meant that we can have instant noodles in the middle of the night! Ended December on the right note with work (lol), BBQ in the drizzle and count down with a friend's place.
May year 2016 be a good year with no heartbreak!
Year 2016 will be the most exciting year thus far and looking forward! <3
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Sunday, July 26, 2015
More and more
One of those days that I feel emotionally overwhelmed about what I have and what I need to work hard for.
And how short-term minded I have had all along. :')
Friday, March 13, 2015
Start again
As I am sitting on the sofa thinking about how march has been so far, I am in awe what I have done. Travelled to istanbul for one week before I began my new job with a different yet related field to the previous job.
I am still adjusting to the time I need to coax myself to go to bed in order to catch enough rest for the day. You can imagine when you hope for something so bad and finally when it comes, you just can hardly believe that it happened?
Thank you fate or whatever/whoever that made this happen. :')
Saturday, February 21, 2015
Second guess
There is something that has been bugging me for some time but that now I really think about it, I am not sure whether I am second guessing too much. Well but it sucks to have to second guess sometimes. That's life, isn't it? (Food for thought)
Anyway I came across this phrase that's says "when you feel like giving up, rmb why you started". I really really hope that the reason is good enough when the time comes the next time round. :)
Another precious cny <3
Friday, January 9, 2015
Lotsa faith
Maybe it is time for me to walk out from my own shadow. Getting me nowhere. Have faith. Lotsa faith.
Monday, January 5, 2015
Kallang trivista
Cannot contain my excitement for the new house although we are currently expecting a cash flow problem when the time comes but well, I guess things will work out!
Took this (imho, gorgeous) photo of the site yesterday. But no, you can't see my flat cos my flat is not facing the mrt track. :) counting my happiness each day while I can. Let's hope that things will only get better :)
Thursday, January 1, 2015
Goodbye 2014 :')
Let's just say... The second part of 2014 has been sucky. Really sucky that I still cannot contain my anger and sadness about what happened but I really wanna keep this to myself so pls don't bother asking me what happened.
Anyways. I learnt that we could choose to not be kind and only make the choices that would be beneficial to us and bad for the other(s). But I also learnt that doing that will ultimately equate you as 不忠不孝，不仁不义... Very exaggerated right haha. That's in my humble opinion only anyway. So... Choose to be kind. And also choose to be kind to those who deserve it and those who need it. I have received kind acts from some and I will be forever grateful to.
Thanks for letting k for letting me know that life can still move on with the setback and that I am not the only one, for letting me know that this is not the end of the world. Thanks p for showering me with acts of kindness and telling me not to give up. Thanks k for being inspirational in realizing your dreams and talking to me like I am not a handicapped and that I am normal.
As for the others, esp I know who, I hope that one day you know how I felt or feel the same kind of feelings that I felt. I am trying not to blame you but whenever I think about the under table tactics that you are doing, I can't help but sigh at your lack of empathy and shortsightedness.
This year has been a bad one but I can't move on from this. Kind of struck but I hope I will see the light at the end of the tunnel soon. Light... Pls shine on me soon hahaha...
Thanks to m for keeping me sane and having something to look forward to. My alarm tags remind me about what I should look forward to in life.
I choose to be thankful for the good things that happened. Thank you 2014 we can say goodbye now :')
Friday, November 14, 2014
Dots in my life
I wish I could connect the dots forward (instead of backwards) now and know why this happened to me.
Need to sleep. Xoxo to myself.
Saturday, November 8, 2014
Sunday, November 2, 2014
Wings to fly
Came up with an emo poem a few days after overtime at work. It goes:
Sometimes I look at the sky
and wonder how high I can fly
then I realized
I have no wings to dive in the sky
So emo I felt paiseh to share with others scare those who care worry about me. On the other hand I am proud of my poem writing skills HAHAHA. =P
Monday, October 27, 2014
The more we get together
One year ago, I was still resisting to the idea of getting married although I have an awesome bf whom I am attached to for 8+ years and counting. Because of the changes that will come marriage.
But recently, I came to realize that we need to have hope in life to live a life that we will love. Hope, can be such a beautiful thing. So today, wearing the t-shirt that my bf folded (inside story), I am posting this post.
Many many more disagreements but also many many more chance for me to annoy you ;). Happily 97th month :)
Saturday, September 20, 2014
What's the next step?
When everything seems to fit perfectly in my life, shit happens.
But there's still a lot to look forward to, especially building a home together :')
Sketched a drawing before I slept last night w the image of our home in the future HAHA like children sketch only.
Anyway, came back from a 8days trip from Taiwan last week. I love travelling and love travelling in Taiwan. There are mountains and mountains and mountains! ^^ see u again taiwan, will definitely travel there again in the future :). Now, back to reality. Need to study hard for my CPA papers. omgoshhhhh. -.-"
未你
But there's still a lot to look forward to, especially building a home together :')
Sketched a drawing before I slept last night w the image of our home in the future HAHA like children sketch only.
Anyway, came back from a 8days trip from Taiwan last week. I love travelling and love travelling in Taiwan. There are mountains and mountains and mountains! ^^ see u again taiwan, will definitely travel there again in the future :). Now, back to reality. Need to study hard for my CPA papers. omgoshhhhh. -.-"
未你
Thursday, July 24, 2014
Post peak withdrawal syndrome
This is crazy lol.
But getting ready for leave during off peak can be so stressful. Well at least the workload during peak is constantly crazy lol, whereas now is the I-must-finish-my-work-so-as-to-not-be-a-burden. Just counting down every single day and want to finish my work before I go on leave. I can do this!
And I am wishing for good luck for I-know-what lol. Good night world :)
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