Something happy.

We went for frog porridge! wee~ I have been craving for it since sunday.

Okay, the rest of this week should still be manageable. but I need to start thinking about work distribution in april because of study leave which I will be asking for. And I woke up late today! Woke up at 9.30 and totally missed my alarm. =/ rushed out. fortunately the boss and lady boss went out. and understudy is really really leaving. :( and temp is becoming perm.

Always look on the bright side of life! ;)

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It's the time of the semester.

Yes, this period of time is terrible. Projects to hand in and there's work to juggle with. nearing the end of the lessons of this sem already. next thing is to plan well on what to study. dont be a fool like last semester to have forgotten to study previous semester question and did badly.

And understudy is leaving :( eww. i was wondering if it is any fault of mine that he is leaving. I didn't do anything bad. maybe he thinks i'm bossy? =/ but i dont think so right. =// aiyayaya. he has been a good helper. Actually my guess is that he's not happy with the remmunation plan, thus he mentioned abt that he found another better job. most people wont start a new job one month before final examination right. so, i dont know. i'll see him on tues. i dont know whether i should ask him for the reason. aiyo. and i suspect that auntie may have something to do with it. but, it's only a guess. all my guess only.

yeahyeah, so hang in there! :)


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Another breather.

We had sushi for dinner because I had that craving last night. I seems to have more food craving when i'm under stress and it feels good to satisfy them. (on a side note, i think i have put on weight =/ . swimming tmr!)

I haven't had this feeling of full for a very very long time. The feeling of satisfaction, comfort, happiness because I have enjoyed my food, without having to think about the things I have to complete by the dateline. phew. shall hang in there and jia you! :)

PS: K talked to me about my work performance and about under-study. yes, i have to be more diligent in my work. okay, another resolution. (with so many resolutions, i dont know how many i can remember and achieve. tired sometimes. and not that diligent. =x )

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Amazing feeling with friends.

Love you girls and time flies when I'm with the two of you <3 thanks for every encouragement, for listening and sharing with me what's happening in your life. I'm grateful to have simple and nice bestie like you two. For us, 加油加油加油! till the next time we meet :)

Another new resolution: Complain/grumble less :)

(I have decided that I should change the title because it is nicer to have nice titles reminding myself to be grateful of what i have)
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One cannot have the best of both worlds

Something that I heard today inspired on this thought (just like in the movie Inception, the idea that is planted is stronger when one "generate"(can't remember the word they used) his own idea.)

I shouldn't expect you to be perfect, because I am not perfect as well.

Right now, I'm just glad that I have you. :)
Thanks for loving me, more than how little I used to love myself.
The next step is probably to take a step back each and not have conflict so often.
Thanks for being you and holding on to your values. :)

OKAY! Some random stuff that triggered my thoughts:
> I came up with a nickname for I-know-who. It's stupid-s. He is totally a back-stabber! Lies about everything. I gotta be careful of him.
> Because of my recent encounter, I realised that guys can be so complicated! omg. I never realised it because sm and kg, my best friend are simple kind of guys.
> The woman in J-family are all fierce. lol. I wonder how the guys can stand it.
> Networking is important.
> My course does not automatically comes with C P A (aust) :( [or so, i heard. i haven't research on it and my intended path after graduation]
> This sem is left with 2 more months (this is my second last sem) oh no! I'm not at all ready! (self-note: keep my long hair for graduation photo. lol! vain me =P)
> I am so glad that the under-study has joined has to help me! He's super fast when it comes to data-entry and he's hardworking (something I should learn from him)
> We need something to cling on to when life gets tough. It helps, very much, very very much.

Saw this plant outside the window of a bus last year at a time when I was really stressed with working and studying. I find it amazing that plants have this kind of strength to live. We should learn to be strong. :)

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I just need to grumble.

Nobody can help me, if I don't help myself.
It's terrible to work and study at the same time. Because work can give crap and as time goes by, I forget that I still have my school. And it's discouraging when I tell people I'm studying accounting, and the next thing they ask is "ACCA?" I'll say "no", and the next thing they will ask (for sure) is "why not?"

It's because I didn't know what I want at that time and I feel unsecured in studying that. On top of that, I have no friends who have graduated from jc who went to a school that is not nus/ntu/smu/sim. Thus I was afraid to try it on my own. Oh, and I hope there will be a day when people won't give the response "oh, such a pity (you didn't get into local uni/ what happened why didn't u go local uni)". Full-time work and study is also difficult okay.

Okay, enough of grumbling, need to study.

Jia you jia yu! For a better future. 不经一番寒刺骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香。

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Google is my best friend

I just discovered the power of Google- to enable you to look for so many related articles/news/image. I think i'm kind of slow to realise this but at least i do now alright. Internet is so powerful!

And steve jobs is a transformational leader (lol. what I have just learnt in class today). The way he presents speech are simply superb.

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Maligned

I was blamed for something that is not my fault. I wasn't told to issue the cheque NOR payment voucher NOR open the letter NOR the reminder letter from that place that starts with a C. I dont even open any letters at all! And they continued to say things that put me down like

>"at least now we know your strength and weakness". (yes, I'm sure you stressed on that word)
>"you felt there were too much work and you complained to your boss" (it's my rights to tell my boss, and there were really too much work)
>"we place you above us so we expect you to know these stuff better than us" (f. we didnt agree on taking over your office operation yet. just because the person in-charge went for holiday doesn't mean i'm responsible.)

NONSENSE. U got me to spend time writing those cheques, instead of working on the system.

To humiliate me further,
you two have got to comment that
> "oh, you can come here to vaccum our floor" (if you feel like spending your money on me for vaccum, I don't mind, I/my company can charge you at the rate we charge for our professional fees, i dont mind)
> (after i told them proudly of my sec sch) "that gangster school?"

I admit i'm not fast, okay, slow, but there were so many things I have to learn, by myself. All I could do was to email the system person to ask. I pick up all these by myself.

I never revealed my age because I dont want them to feel that i'm inexperienced. And they try all sort of ways to get me to say, like
he said > "you have already told me your age that time"
i said > "no i didnt, what did i say?"
he said > "you said 6 more months you are turning 30"
(in my mind: you want me to say by telling me i look older so that i'll say our my real age right)

Maturity is not determined by age. Because you two are childish. nonsense.

I felt so silly that I cried over it. If k stands on their side, then i think there's no point in me working for him.

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