Need to love myself more.

And so, another five months (almost) has passed. I shall sum up my thoughts.

It's yet another crappiest semester ever. This time, its not about study and work; it's about work and projects. These are projects that have deprived me of my energy. I am hopeless when it comes to individual projects, because I often forget to check on the requirements properly. I also often have problems understanding what the question requires and researching on the relevant materials. And no, I still feel like the outlier, the odd one, and this feeling certainly did not help me. After a long day at work, especially at the sse-place, I feel so drained. And I have bad time management, I spent my precious time on meaningless activities and thats something I ought to change. I kept feeling all the negative feelings, towards school, work and people around me. And then I finally realised its me that should change. I should change my attitude and things will be fine.

AHH. One more sem to go before I graduate. I have mixed feelings towards graduation. Graduating means I'll have to:
1) Decide on my route
2) Provide for my own expenses and contribute more to household
3) Grow up

I am clueless sometimes, on how I should behave. I'm not used to office politics, back-stabbers, people who do not practise what they preach. On a side-note, I hate spoilt brats. They should be locked up until they know how to behave. lol. Fine, this is too extreme, but I enjoy the very thought of not needing to put up with them.

BF (best friends) are awesome. :)
1) I am glad to have discoved the telepathy between friends. Well, maybe it isn't exactly telepathy, it's sensitivity. Friends who will clarify any unhappiness, and are concerned with another's feelings. I was hurt initially because of some actions of this bf of mine. I was typing a very long sms to him and was pondering whether or not to send it out because I think that friends should really understand each other and not pick on each others weaknesses, especially when it comes to setting our own priorities. Before I could decide, he called. We talked about it and I felt much better after that. And then I was reminded of why he is my best friend despite us not being able to meet often, because he's a very nice friend.

2) I feel so pampered by the pink package and card. And when I asked why she treats me her bestie, she gave me reasons. Silly me, yes, but I am glad I asked. hahahahahahaha. :)

I had a k-singing session and we sang our hearts out. Enjoyed it. Singing songs makes one happy! Thankful for the treat and the meal that I would otherwise have not tried. :)

AND I JUST HEARD A NEWS that i shouldn't spread but i'm so happy for I-know-who. A group of us had a "htht" (which should be named a gossip session rather) but i'm so so so irritated that it kept side-tracked with so little conversed. argh. Anyway, (the only "moral of the story" I was reminded of was) when I commented about a friend's 9-months relationship being in honeymoon stage, he said no, it's in comfortable stage. That's the word alright. Comfortable. Sm and I still have disagreements (more than I think we should have. lol.) but yes, I feel comfortable with him. bleh. I dont know what the future holds though, but I really hope we'll last forever.

Next up, meet-ups and some time for myself. :) I think I had a very long shower today (eh. maybe 45mins or one hour?) and felt refreshed. I. need. to. love. myself. more.

Long week ahead and fight fight fight. This monday and friday are gonna be the worst.

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