Been feeling very down these few days because of friends, family, work. It's not a good start, I told myself. How am I going to go through this?
I had a talk with uncle k tonight. It has been really long since we last talked. I wasn't sure if he was free to talk or wished to talk but I really did miss talking to this friend. So I rattled on. I'm glad I did. He's one of the best people to talk with.
Life's just like that, no time to think too much, no time to consider so much. I have to be more decisive and hold on to my point on whatever I want.
I may not have a large group of friends but I'm contented with what I have. I do not live in a big house but I have a comfortable roof over my head. I shouldn't be too hard on myself, to try to make the others happy but upset myself at the same time. I'm always afraid of saying something wrong to another person, always afraid of making someone upset/angry/annoyed at me. I should just be me. H mentioned this to me before too. I just got to be me.
Another skill I have to learn is to filter.
I'm touched.
Touched by what I have.
未你
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Friday, July 22, 2011
Slack-y foreign lecturer
As compared to the first foreign lecturer, this lecturer is really slack max. She told us to print some notes to prepare for tmr's lesson but as I have just checked, she has not uploaded them. -_- . Can't you spare a thought for those students who are working. and, she dismissed us one hour before the supposed time.
Shall write a short blog entry then.
Been feeling moody since that sms came. It's double-standard. And me, having a low determination on things usually, feels like giving up already. Enough. idkidkidk. I don't want you to feel like you have compromised a lot for me. idk.
On a positive note, I'm making friends all over again in school.
TGIF.
未你
Shall write a short blog entry then.
Been feeling moody since that sms came. It's double-standard. And me, having a low determination on things usually, feels like giving up already. Enough. idkidkidk. I don't want you to feel like you have compromised a lot for me. idk.
On a positive note, I'm making friends all over again in school.
TGIF.
未你
Sunday, July 17, 2011
The Start of The Last
I'm not writing about the last harry potter movie(7, part 2) here, I'm writing on my last semester of my course, my seventh semester.
Studying and working can be compared to taking a rollercoaster ride. (fyi, I have fear for rollarcoaster)
Once you start on one, you cant stop. The ride will get more and more crazy till the end. Fear enters your heart when you realise you dont know what to do. And it ends after the final examination. Well, it's a little different this semester as compared to the last because there's greater emphasise put on the whole semester's projects, and mid term tests. Thus, it's gonna be a crazy ride throughout I guess.
This is gonna be my last (well, at least at sim. probably gonna either take up acca or cpa australia, havent made up my mind yet), and hopefully the best.
Another topic, friends.
What to do when your two bestie dislike each other? Sandwiched. Now I know exactly those guys whose mum and wife couldn't get along feels. The only solution: Separate them.
Some friends are good to have, but no matter how much effort I put into them, I wouldn't get anything out of it. Life's like this I guess. I just pray hard that my best friends will stay as my best friends forever.
Another point. Someone struck me to think of this:
If you forget your friends when you are in love, don't expect them to remember you when you are out of love.
Karma.
Full school and work to go! Gonna stay optimistic! :D
未你
Studying and working can be compared to taking a rollercoaster ride. (fyi, I have fear for rollarcoaster)
Once you start on one, you cant stop. The ride will get more and more crazy till the end. Fear enters your heart when you realise you dont know what to do. And it ends after the final examination. Well, it's a little different this semester as compared to the last because there's greater emphasise put on the whole semester's projects, and mid term tests. Thus, it's gonna be a crazy ride throughout I guess.
This is gonna be my last (well, at least at sim. probably gonna either take up acca or cpa australia, havent made up my mind yet), and hopefully the best.
Another topic, friends.
What to do when your two bestie dislike each other? Sandwiched. Now I know exactly those guys whose mum and wife couldn't get along feels. The only solution: Separate them.
Some friends are good to have, but no matter how much effort I put into them, I wouldn't get anything out of it. Life's like this I guess. I just pray hard that my best friends will stay as my best friends forever.
Another point. Someone struck me to think of this:
If you forget your friends when you are in love, don't expect them to remember you when you are out of love.
Karma.
Full school and work to go! Gonna stay optimistic! :D
未你
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Wake me up when July comes.
July has arrived.
I can hardly believe that another 6months has left and I am already at the second half of 2011. What a (half) year, what an emo year so far. I'm too emotional for my own good. I am still that naive to believe and trust people so fully. Too trusting for my own good. Shall learn not to be so trusting! :) and I shall tame my temper, be nicer to people who are nice to me :) Anyway, last semester to go and I shall attempt to pull up my results for this final sem, after scoring so many lousy credits last two semesters. (look at my results and sigh). And I should learn to filter and take some things at surface value.
Re-watched my favourite anime's movie and I'm still loving it. <3 Attempted to play the "ping-pong-ping-pong-ping-pong-chap". It's nice to reminisce the good old times. Everything and everyone has changed. And I'm glad that I still have these wonderful memories and wonderful friends whom I am still in touched with. Thankful :)
And of course, sm who is still by my side :)
On a side note, I have found a very nice photo app! omg. loves. haha. :)
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未你
I can hardly believe that another 6months has left and I am already at the second half of 2011. What a (half) year, what an emo year so far. I'm too emotional for my own good. I am still that naive to believe and trust people so fully. Too trusting for my own good. Shall learn not to be so trusting! :) and I shall tame my temper, be nicer to people who are nice to me :) Anyway, last semester to go and I shall attempt to pull up my results for this final sem, after scoring so many lousy credits last two semesters. (look at my results and sigh). And I should learn to filter and take some things at surface value.
Re-watched my favourite anime's movie and I'm still loving it. <3 Attempted to play the "ping-pong-ping-pong-ping-pong-chap". It's nice to reminisce the good old times. Everything and everyone has changed. And I'm glad that I still have these wonderful memories and wonderful friends whom I am still in touched with. Thankful :)
And of course, sm who is still by my side :)
On a side note, I have found a very nice photo app! omg. loves. haha. :)
未你
Sunday, July 3, 2011
One night in safari.
We six people went to night safari last night. Only took like 2 or 3 photos because my camera is really bad when it comes to taking photo in the dark or near darkness. I didn't expect much from this trip and I would say this is better than I imagined, though it could have been better if we went there earlier and had time to go on walking trail.
Looking at the cute animals is so cute. Okay, my sentence is weird. lol :) and on the tram ride, we saw elephants, tigers, etc. It's like they leaped out of our primary school science textbook and are so real right in front of me. It's a pity though, that many of them are endangered species. Climate change and hunters are not helping at all. It's nice to see them.
Following that was a stayover and fun till 5+ am with the chinese idioms and drawings. We were all high to the point where we laugh at the smallest thing. One funniest incident was when my friend kt switched off the light, he realised he cant see at all. And so, someone commented he lay down before he switch off the light. BUT if he lay down then he wouldn't be able to see where he was supposed to sleep at! hahahaha. so he went to switch off the light and attempts to find his place before someone else commented that he can use the owl light which they bought at night safari for a little light to light his way. And so he search for the owl and switch on. AND finally, when we all thought it's okay, time to sleep already, he said "but i dont know how to switch off this light!" and the switch is in fact the same one as how he switched on it. He's very very funny because of the way he says things. :)
I'm sick and i dont know where i caught it from. :( is it the lychee I ate, or the huge puff of cigarettes smoke i sniffed when walking up the stairs, or from sm? idk.
未你
Looking at the cute animals is so cute. Okay, my sentence is weird. lol :) and on the tram ride, we saw elephants, tigers, etc. It's like they leaped out of our primary school science textbook and are so real right in front of me. It's a pity though, that many of them are endangered species. Climate change and hunters are not helping at all. It's nice to see them.
Following that was a stayover and fun till 5+ am with the chinese idioms and drawings. We were all high to the point where we laugh at the smallest thing. One funniest incident was when my friend kt switched off the light, he realised he cant see at all. And so, someone commented he lay down before he switch off the light. BUT if he lay down then he wouldn't be able to see where he was supposed to sleep at! hahahaha. so he went to switch off the light and attempts to find his place before someone else commented that he can use the owl light which they bought at night safari for a little light to light his way. And so he search for the owl and switch on. AND finally, when we all thought it's okay, time to sleep already, he said "but i dont know how to switch off this light!" and the switch is in fact the same one as how he switched on it. He's very very funny because of the way he says things. :)
I'm sick and i dont know where i caught it from. :( is it the lychee I ate, or the huge puff of cigarettes smoke i sniffed when walking up the stairs, or from sm? idk.
未你
This holiday.
I have managed to clear most of what I want to do this holiday. Meeting up with friends have always been <3 because I can have htht with them. And sometimes they will "yes yes! this happened to me toooooo!" yeah, sometimes it is grumbles we share in each of our life but sometimes it is nonsense that we share. However, organising for a meet-up can really be a bitch sometimes, especially when people dont reply. Once or twice is fine but too many times can really show how much i mean to u :( well, as much as i grumble about planning, i am always glad to meet up with them, :)
Meeting up with different friends gives different feelings and every time time flies and before i realise it, it's time to head home already. Play time will never be enough right. well well, i shall attempt to settle down when my crazy timetable starts in mid-july.
Working has still been crappy with my monday-blues client. I have tried very very very hard but i think my strategy is wrong and i always push things to the last minute thus always not enough time. the accting system sucks. b/s cannnot balance and i have been asking the maintenance person one million questions on the system. I really cannot take it anymore and thus i would rather suffer a pay cut in order to end my suffering there. it's total nonsense. understudy will be taking over this and i expect him to do a good job because he is less emotional to everything and faster and more poker face (k said he has a poker face, and i agree. lol. ) and thus should be able to handle this monday-blues better. My challenge now is to complete what i'm doing, which is the may and jun work before passing over to understudy.
I have a few other thought which I have been wanting to pen down but havent did.
Being too friendly
I have a problem with being too friendly sometimes or be in the opinion that someone is a "大好人" and only to feel so cheated after that because the person has a hidden agenda or cannot be understood. I shall remind myself to be caution (though i think i have problem doing this because i trust too easily) .
Explaining my work/study life
I may have blogged about this before: I have problem explaining to people my situation because it is not so straight-forward. I am working full-time and studying part-time for my bachelor course. My studies is structured such that it is 7 semesters, which effectively translates into 3 and a half years. I didn't retain nor repeat any modules and the course is such this way. It is difficult to explain this to people, especially to the aunties/uncles. It feels worse when people, after hearing that I am studying in SIM, comment things like "ohhhhhhhhhhh, is it more expensive?" and they didnt ask in a concern way, they asked in the oh-so-you-cant-get-into-local-uni kind of tone. yes, till now it is still a wound in my heart that i was not able to get into a course I want in nus/ntu. I dont mean i feel offended, but it just reminds me of my sucky results. And it doesn't help when my mum will drop comments like "sigh, my biggest regret is that none of you three could enter into local uni". (stabs into my heart).
oh shit. this is an emo post. shall seperately write about my night safari adventure in my next post :)
未你
Meeting up with different friends gives different feelings and every time time flies and before i realise it, it's time to head home already. Play time will never be enough right. well well, i shall attempt to settle down when my crazy timetable starts in mid-july.
Working has still been crappy with my monday-blues client. I have tried very very very hard but i think my strategy is wrong and i always push things to the last minute thus always not enough time. the accting system sucks. b/s cannnot balance and i have been asking the maintenance person one million questions on the system. I really cannot take it anymore and thus i would rather suffer a pay cut in order to end my suffering there. it's total nonsense. understudy will be taking over this and i expect him to do a good job because he is less emotional to everything and faster and more poker face (k said he has a poker face, and i agree. lol. ) and thus should be able to handle this monday-blues better. My challenge now is to complete what i'm doing, which is the may and jun work before passing over to understudy.
I have a few other thought which I have been wanting to pen down but havent did.
Being too friendly
I have a problem with being too friendly sometimes or be in the opinion that someone is a "大好人" and only to feel so cheated after that because the person has a hidden agenda or cannot be understood. I shall remind myself to be caution (though i think i have problem doing this because i trust too easily) .
Explaining my work/study life
I may have blogged about this before: I have problem explaining to people my situation because it is not so straight-forward. I am working full-time and studying part-time for my bachelor course. My studies is structured such that it is 7 semesters, which effectively translates into 3 and a half years. I didn't retain nor repeat any modules and the course is such this way. It is difficult to explain this to people, especially to the aunties/uncles. It feels worse when people, after hearing that I am studying in SIM, comment things like "ohhhhhhhhhhh, is it more expensive?" and they didnt ask in a concern way, they asked in the oh-so-you-cant-get-into-local-uni kind of tone. yes, till now it is still a wound in my heart that i was not able to get into a course I want in nus/ntu. I dont mean i feel offended, but it just reminds me of my sucky results. And it doesn't help when my mum will drop comments like "sigh, my biggest regret is that none of you three could enter into local uni". (stabs into my heart).
oh shit. this is an emo post. shall seperately write about my night safari adventure in my next post :)
未你
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