Where's my shore?

I dreamt of attending driving lesson, as if it is May 2012 now and I am still in the oh-I-can-slack mode. Then I woke up and realise that I have not accomplished much these few months.

One of the times I feel uneasy about my present.

Time flies, didn't it?

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Thank you July

Thank you July for this memory of me passing my driving test.
And showing me the possibility of things.
And reminding me how important it is to maintain a relationship to keep it going.
And how there are still nice people in this world.

And I'm (finally) gonna graduate officially in my graduation ceremony in Aug! :)

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Living in joy

I still can't really come to terms with the fact that I passed. I'm lucky to be in the group I'm in, to have managed to book that particular test session with that tester and had a regular instructor as my warm-up instructor. Almost everything that I went through in the warm-up session came up. I wake up on some days wondering if I really did pass.

However when I realised that I won't be able to drive for some time I kind of feel sad. Eww.. :(

Next stage in life but really grateful for everything! I'll remember Teachers' Day! :)


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A happy ending

I have so much to say about driving but thought perhaps I should write them in my diary.

Just, awesome.

Thankful for all the effort especially for the last session and the warm up session. :')

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Awesomest instructor

It had been a good drive today. I hope that this will be my last session of practice and the awesomest instructor actually took the effort to exchange with another instructor to go through with me my last session!

It goes like this: I am supposed to get a reminder in the morning to remind me about the session that I booked for the day and after I checked, I know it is not 77 so (ARGH) it will be another instructor. I waved to this awesome instructor at the waiting area (I'm always friendly to this and another instructor because they are also friendly to me!), thinking that he will pick up another student. However, he waved and told me to get nearer to the car, before telling me to get in. And he said he exchanged with the other instructor because this will be my last session. Okay to explain why, I would really prefer this instructor because he is humourous and he pinpoints the fatal mistake. Anyway, we did a revision of one round and I made two fatal mistakes and a couple of other mistakes. But it is okay because I would know the problem now and not make the same mistake again in my test (self-note: turn right into the right lane for number 3 and not turn together with another car side-by-side). And since this instructor is good friend with another instructor who I know is nice, I got to say a proper hi and bye to him while he was waiting for his student too. I also got to park in a drizzle, something I have always wondered about. A complete last session. Grateful for the effort from them. So nice right!

I'll be in the six and not the one!

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MC x 2

Fever made me decided that I really needed a break. Took two days of MC and back to work tmr. Much to do tmr and then its sat and its driving (after so long!). Pretty excited! Something to keep me going for the week!
I need to pour my feelings into a book. lol. Looking for that book!
and a water bottle to replace my three-years-old water bottle which had kept me going at work and in school. That warm feeling it emits in chilling lecture rooms that almost seem as if they were set on freezing us to death.


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May day

It was three days of agony at work to realise what I was not be able to achieve. I felt disappointed with myself. And that I had over-estimated myself. Maybe its a good thing that I did not get into crazy work lifestyle in huge companies. But.. disappointment is the word.

Put that aside, I had three post-exams gathering since labour day. Girls singing out (crazily) had never felt so good. Singing is the expression of the soul. I appreciate the simple surprise planned, its the thoughts that count and I'm touched. :) Another one was a walk around Esplanade, one of my fav places in sg, though there's really nothing much to do, was simple dinner and walking around. Recalled something about planning for overseas trip and I agree that an awareness of of the feelings of others is important. and yay I'll be receiving a gel eyeliner as present! let's hope I'll find it easy to use. hehehe. Third gathering: It hit me that the person I missed is the person in my memory and not really you. My very-forgetful brain.. Awkwardness. I should stop trying to imagine that a person is better/worse than he/she is. Take life as it is and move on.

Driving today was awesome! Although I have made enough mistakes today to fail, I felt good about the whole thing. Let's hope it stays this way and wish me luck in getting a good time for driving test! (and it's two months of waiting time. -_- ) Had a whole lot of evil laughter today! HAHAHA. =P

I feel sad when we quarrel about things everytime. However after every argument, I feel glad that I found you who is willing to stick with me to solve the problems together. Thank you and thank fate to have let me meet you. :)

<<random pic i found that i drew. >>

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Whining

I. Still. Have. Not. Secure. Another. Job. Rawrrrrrrrrr.

Politics at work, trying not to step on any mine but I think I did, accidentally. Peace. It's difficult to be nice to everyone. Still manageable I guess. Anyway back-stabbers won't tell u they have stabbed u on the back so I have no way of telling. Just focus on my job. Still doing okay, fortunately.

I had a couple of weird dreams recently, I felt much for a particular one because it thought me to think about what "responsibilities" guys have in a relationship. I felt that it's the nicer part of me trying to remind me not to be too mean to sm. Oops. Okay, point taken.

Many places I wish to visit. Somehow the places just add up and there's a long list. Let's see how I plan my time and whether I can get people out. Wee~

Driving had been bad. So many bad habits to change. Omg. $.$ nevertheless, it has been a really good experience.

锦上添花，不如雪中送炭。

Choices

Life is about making choices that mattered to you. Chat with instructor taught me more than driving skills. And I think i'm evil in some of my remarks. OKAY. Shall not be so evil. And I realised humour is such a beautiful thing. Having empathy is such a nice trait too.

Listening and finding out more about the family of these two instructors made me realised that happy family can be maintained if one put in hardwork. I wonder how my future will be in the future after I get married. And I think men with a family to work hard for are so charming.

Feels weird to have my driving lesson cut down to only one or two per week.


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Okay, when I'm not.

It's not so bad if it is a once-off feeling; It's bad when it is a feeling of remorse, guilt and feeling of failure as if I can never do better and beat my old self. I used to look forward to each session of driving and each served as a motivation for me to carry on with my mundane life. Unfortunately, it has since became a burden that I'm holding on. But I'm not gonna let this continue. Never ever.

I didn't want to write about driving because I was afraid that I'll jinx it somehow, as if that someone above will cast out my name if I were to proclaim that I am learning to drive.

I knew that I was gonna be a havoc on road. And I'm gonna make it my last. last accident.

I'm sorry.

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