Something happy.

We went for frog porridge! wee~ I have been craving for it since sunday.

Okay, the rest of this week should still be manageable. but I need to start thinking about work distribution in april because of study leave which I will be asking for. And I woke up late today! Woke up at 9.30 and totally missed my alarm. =/ rushed out. fortunately the boss and lady boss went out. and understudy is really really leaving. :( and temp is becoming perm.

Always look on the bright side of life! ;)

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It's the time of the semester.

Yes, this period of time is terrible. Projects to hand in and there's work to juggle with. nearing the end of the lessons of this sem already. next thing is to plan well on what to study. dont be a fool like last semester to have forgotten to study previous semester question and did badly.

And understudy is leaving :( eww. i was wondering if it is any fault of mine that he is leaving. I didn't do anything bad. maybe he thinks i'm bossy? =/ but i dont think so right. =// aiyayaya. he has been a good helper. Actually my guess is that he's not happy with the remmunation plan, thus he mentioned abt that he found another better job. most people wont start a new job one month before final examination right. so, i dont know. i'll see him on tues. i dont know whether i should ask him for the reason. aiyo. and i suspect that auntie may have something to do with it. but, it's only a guess. all my guess only.

yeahyeah, so hang in there! :)


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Another breather.

We had sushi for dinner because I had that craving last night. I seems to have more food craving when i'm under stress and it feels good to satisfy them. (on a side note, i think i have put on weight =/ . swimming tmr!)

I haven't had this feeling of full for a very very long time. The feeling of satisfaction, comfort, happiness because I have enjoyed my food, without having to think about the things I have to complete by the dateline. phew. shall hang in there and jia you! :)

PS: K talked to me about my work performance and about under-study. yes, i have to be more diligent in my work. okay, another resolution. (with so many resolutions, i dont know how many i can remember and achieve. tired sometimes. and not that diligent. =x )

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Amazing feeling with friends.

Love you girls and time flies when I'm with the two of you <3 thanks for every encouragement, for listening and sharing with me what's happening in your life. I'm grateful to have simple and nice bestie like you two. For us, 加油加油加油! till the next time we meet :)

Another new resolution: Complain/grumble less :)

(I have decided that I should change the title because it is nicer to have nice titles reminding myself to be grateful of what i have)
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One cannot have the best of both worlds

Something that I heard today inspired on this thought (just like in the movie Inception, the idea that is planted is stronger when one "generate"(can't remember the word they used) his own idea.)

I shouldn't expect you to be perfect, because I am not perfect as well.

Right now, I'm just glad that I have you. :)
Thanks for loving me, more than how little I used to love myself.
The next step is probably to take a step back each and not have conflict so often.
Thanks for being you and holding on to your values. :)

OKAY! Some random stuff that triggered my thoughts:
> I came up with a nickname for I-know-who. It's stupid-s. He is totally a back-stabber! Lies about everything. I gotta be careful of him.
> Because of my recent encounter, I realised that guys can be so complicated! omg. I never realised it because sm and kg, my best friend are simple kind of guys.
> The woman in J-family are all fierce. lol. I wonder how the guys can stand it.
> Networking is important.
> My course does not automatically comes with C P A (aust) :( [or so, i heard. i haven't research on it and my intended path after graduation]
> This sem is left with 2 more months (this is my second last sem) oh no! I'm not at all ready! (self-note: keep my long hair for graduation photo. lol! vain me =P)
> I am so glad that the under-study has joined has to help me! He's super fast when it comes to data-entry and he's hardworking (something I should learn from him)
> We need something to cling on to when life gets tough. It helps, very much, very very much.

Saw this plant outside the window of a bus last year at a time when I was really stressed with working and studying. I find it amazing that plants have this kind of strength to live. We should learn to be strong. :)

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I just need to grumble.

Nobody can help me, if I don't help myself.
It's terrible to work and study at the same time. Because work can give crap and as time goes by, I forget that I still have my school. And it's discouraging when I tell people I'm studying accounting, and the next thing they ask is "ACCA?" I'll say "no", and the next thing they will ask (for sure) is "why not?"

It's because I didn't know what I want at that time and I feel unsecured in studying that. On top of that, I have no friends who have graduated from jc who went to a school that is not nus/ntu/smu/sim. Thus I was afraid to try it on my own. Oh, and I hope there will be a day when people won't give the response "oh, such a pity (you didn't get into local uni/ what happened why didn't u go local uni)". Full-time work and study is also difficult okay.

Okay, enough of grumbling, need to study.

Jia you jia yu! For a better future. 不经一番寒刺骨，哪得梅花扑鼻香。

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Google is my best friend

I just discovered the power of Google- to enable you to look for so many related articles/news/image. I think i'm kind of slow to realise this but at least i do now alright. Internet is so powerful!

And steve jobs is a transformational leader (lol. what I have just learnt in class today). The way he presents speech are simply superb.

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Maligned

I was blamed for something that is not my fault. I wasn't told to issue the cheque NOR payment voucher NOR open the letter NOR the reminder letter from that place that starts with a C. I dont even open any letters at all! And they continued to say things that put me down like

>"at least now we know your strength and weakness". (yes, I'm sure you stressed on that word)
>"you felt there were too much work and you complained to your boss" (it's my rights to tell my boss, and there were really too much work)
>"we place you above us so we expect you to know these stuff better than us" (f. we didnt agree on taking over your office operation yet. just because the person in-charge went for holiday doesn't mean i'm responsible.)

NONSENSE. U got me to spend time writing those cheques, instead of working on the system.

To humiliate me further,
you two have got to comment that
> "oh, you can come here to vaccum our floor" (if you feel like spending your money on me for vaccum, I don't mind, I/my company can charge you at the rate we charge for our professional fees, i dont mind)
> (after i told them proudly of my sec sch) "that gangster school?"

I admit i'm not fast, okay, slow, but there were so many things I have to learn, by myself. All I could do was to email the system person to ask. I pick up all these by myself.

I never revealed my age because I dont want them to feel that i'm inexperienced. And they try all sort of ways to get me to say, like
he said > "you have already told me your age that time"
i said > "no i didnt, what did i say?"
he said > "you said 6 more months you are turning 30"
(in my mind: you want me to say by telling me i look older so that i'll say our my real age right)

Maturity is not determined by age. Because you two are childish. nonsense.

I felt so silly that I cried over it. If k stands on their side, then i think there's no point in me working for him.

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My personal view on facebook

Facebook is an entertainment, not a way of life.

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My sunflower affair.

<3 my sunflower affair.

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To express myself.

I find it diffcult to suppress my thoughts. But I need to. I'm not able, and not supposed to correct some people. For example, I can't possibly tell my clients off for what I disagree with (for their family affairs). And to my elders, I shouldn't correct them. And definitely not to people who doesn't listen. And so I grumble. But it isn't healthy to grumble too much. Yet, if I don't grumble, I feel like there's something in me, like a balloon growing.


And so, I came to enjoy reading blogs where blogger expresses himself/herself, to a certain exent, freely. I find it funny the way they scold the others, and silly sometimes because it is really over such a small stuff that he/she is having a huge fuss over.


And so, I'm still learning, learning to express myself in a positive way, to express my views but at the same time not offend anyone. I'm sorry if I'm not good with words. I meant and mean well. :)


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How nice it will be if your cousin is also your best friend.

I had lunch with a familiar face today, my cousin. I have no idea why I'm not at all angry when he had forgotten our lunch meet-up. I'm just glad that at least when he realised it, he came to watch me eat, although there was only half an hour left. This cousin of mine, I watched him grow up, and he is so tall now, messy hair though, lol. I call this pre-army syndrome: a want to keep your hair as long as possible before you go botak at tekong. =P

No, I'm not really close to this cousin of mine, or rather, I am not really very close to any of my cousins. :( How I wish I am! In my opinion, it is nice to have big families with close bonds. It's not easy though, almost 家家有本难念的经  .


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Chinese new year 2011

I find it kind of sad not to have big extended family reunion dinner this year, and probably not going to have it in the future too. To be honest, I don't want to interfer nor meddle in the "adult's problem" but I do care about keeping in touch with my younger cousins. I watched my cousins grow up, yet I don't have the chance to know them more other than during the annual reunion dinner we have. I have no idea what to do about this yet. humph.

Well, maybe I should be glad that at least we spent our 初一 together. It's amazing to see my cousins grow up, so tall now! And some of them have break their voice, wahahahaha. How good it will be if we could all be close. I envy those family with close bonds. This makes me think of having a large family myself when I grow up. lol. Crazy thought with the increase in the standard of living now.

And after this chinese new year, I have got to put my attention back to my work and studies! Have slacked enough and it is time to catch up. Can't afford to do last min work again for school because I always have ot randomly. :( on a side note, someone quite random told me something, which kind of inspired me:
me: but studying and working is very difficult.
mh (my friend): 可是你是佳榆 leh.
It hit me. yes, if I haven't fallen after so many years, I wouldn't be defeated by this.

I just gotta be strong.

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声音，噪音，杂音

这是我在＂某＂个地方的感受。
恨不得自己能躲在一个洞，能远离那吵闹的环境。
不去听不管自己的事情，以免在不知情时，被卷入他人的纠纷里。
有些人会大声嚷嚷，也有小孩子会在旁吵着要＂mummy＂引起他妈妈的注意（也是引起他妈妈的烦躁情绪）。
就算这些人不在，我也得小心，因为伴君如伴虎，我不知道几时会说错话，或有没有三姑六婆会把白的讲成黑的，或是断章取义。
因为在那，那些说自己很随便的其实是最看不开的。
但是，我在那里也学到了不少，最少我看到了种种不一样的人。有的值得我学习，有的值得我了解了不要犯同样的错误。

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To change for the better, 2011

1) Abide by the rule of punctuality

2) Be more sensitive towards others, in terms my actions

3) To be strong and withstand the nonsense that life offers me

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Trying to balance School, Work, and Life.

How forgetful can I get?
I conveniently forgot that I would have many projects and test to follow up to in a semester even though I'm supposed to be only doing this part-time studies. Just realised I have got 6 reports, 3 individual, 3 group to do, and 1 test. I'm so scared of doing individual report because I don't know how to do referencing (yes, EVEN after the many projects because my group members are the ones doing the referencing and hence i have been able to avoid doing it). And I'm afraid that I'll conveniently forget about the project altogether and forgot the due date. x.x


I immersed myself in work, and forgot about school. OH NO! Need to wake up already.


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can't match

can't match can't match, i can't match,
this whole lot of nonsense, i can't match.


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I'm different because I'm special.

Live like myself, and that's the best I can be.

I'm different because I'm special :)

Live love laugh

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Have you ever felt this way?

Caution.This is gonna be a sad post.



I have gotta rant this out because this has been bothering me for quite some time.
Have you ever love a friend, only to realise much later that he/she doesn't love you back as much?
In this case, Love=Friendship .

Some time back, I thought that you have left me for good, because although we had a lot of good memories together, we are essentially different. I was the one who chose a different environment from you, fearing that i may lose you, in front of me. I don't want to be seen as a shadow, and I want to be happy to be me. I want to be me. Nevertheless, I wanted to stay in contact with you. Maybe time was a big concern back then. And we drifted away. I tried, more than once to pull you nearer to me, but it all failed. And then, after I have decided to give up, miraculously, as if my prayers were answered, you came back. And, I believed in you. Believe that you would never ever do what you have did to me before, again.





And then you did.


I'm probably the one who's getting over-sensitive this time.
And so, I hope I'll just wake up next morning feeling stupid that I have felt the way I feel.

Yes, cheers to a better day. :D


to all this small blog's readers out there, i would very much prefer you not to guess who's the person.

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Amazing 2010

Year 2010 has been an amazing year.
It started off with a blast with my very first overseas trip organized by friends to genting. No doubt it was a short trip, it has been nice travelling with friends. :) then it was an surprise celebration that I have co-organized with a friend. He went quite high during that celebration too. Lol.
And it was ORD! It shouldn't have sound like it has anything to do with me, but it was! It was as though I went through it okay. Though it didn't experienced it physically, I experienced it mentally and emotionally. It was a tough one year and ten months with nonsense and a great deal of getting used to, especially the restricted amount of time we have everyday and the gloomy Sunday nights, both for you and me. I'm so glad that we have got over it.
Then the next big thing was the first cny that I have came across before, that falls on 14feb, otherwise known as vday.
Then it was one of my best friends birthday in march. Though it was only a simple steamboat dinner, I'm so happy for her. And then there were another two close friends' celebration and I'm so happy for them too because they had also enjoyed the celebrations. Then came April where I broke down with the stress of work, projects and exams. I had almost wanted to call off my birthday party because I had too much to handle. I'm fortunate to have sm helped me with the logistic and I only had to care about my guest list and to make some decisions.
Then came end of April where my mugging time increased as I had taken leave from my work.
May was a blast with my party (=^_^=) and some celebrations and catch up. May and June was fun because it was school holidays(yup, I continued working at the same time, all the while). I should pause here to say there I sincerely enjoyed all the birthday parties that I have attended and I'm so happy for my friends who have had their party and at a great time.
And so I continued to attend parties and in July, it was to uss. So pretty! Although I was terrified by that small mummy rollarcoaster, I'm glad that I have tried! It sure has been a scary experience but also an amazing one because I'm proud of myself that I have gone through it. No regrets :)
In aug, it was sm's turn. I know I wasn't much of a help to the party, both for the organizing and for the actual day but I'm glad that everything has turned out well for him :) it was a headache when it comes to buying presents but luckily, I had a idea and he had a new need, hostel. Lol.
I have attended another surprise birthday party for another bestie and I saw how loving they are and I am truly happy for her. Then, I realized whatone could enjoy, if you have money. That is not in my own spending range. Different background. It's cool anyway.
Next came was end of sept. It was our fourth anniversary and we had only simple dinner but it was simply nice. And we made our rings (again ;))
In oct, I went to a memorable birthday celebration. It wasn't at any grand place, it was in front of a shop at a housing estate. They had everything necessary for party and it sure was the wild-est party I have ever attended. Then, I understood what they mean by that a family shapes how a child (or rather, a person's) character.
Oct was another crazy stress-filled month as I juggled with my job and studies, and this time, I fared badly. Phew. I don't know how I'm going to get through this another two times but I will, I believe :) . Alright, back to my main idea, nov and dec was enjoy and "let's go out days" after work. I hope I have done enough of encouraging you and had motivated you enough, you-know-who. I'm pretty dumb when it comes to encouraging you =/
anyway, I co-made a banner for a best friend. We were so proud of our self-painted banner. Lol.
Dec was filled with fun and I had an eye-opener when I went to stayover at mbs hotel ^^ the sky pool is simply awesome! The best pool that I have ever seen and swam in.
Christmas period was stayover and catch up with friends. Had the "wettest BBQ" and fun!
New year eve was all sort of impromptu decisions, and everything fall in nicely in the end, our first countdown together.


I'm contented with such an amazing 2010 :)


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