More and more

One of those days that I feel emotionally overwhelmed about what I have and what I need to work hard for. 

And how short-term minded I have had all along. :')

Start again

As I am sitting on the sofa thinking about how march has been so far, I am in awe what I have done. Travelled to istanbul for one week before I began my new job with a different yet related field to the previous job.

I am still adjusting to the time I need to coax myself to go to bed in order to catch enough rest for the day. You can imagine when you hope for something so bad and finally when it comes, you just can hardly believe that it happened?

Thank you fate or whatever/whoever that made this happen. :')

Second guess

There is something that has been bugging me for some time but that now I really think about it, I am not sure whether I am second guessing too much. Well but it sucks to have to second guess sometimes. That's life, isn't it? (Food for thought)

Anyway I came across this phrase that's says "when you feel like giving up, rmb why you started". I really really hope that the reason is good enough when the time comes the next time round. :)

Another precious cny <3

Missing out so many things in life

I wish I could clear my work faster and better but I really didn't manage and not able to. And I have to make choices which to forsake: sleep, family or friends. I know I can't do this forever and I am counting down to off-peak days!

Oh god, please make me more efficient!

Another year older

I decided to give myself a break on my birthday from work this year. Bought the tickets to sentosa rws aquarium this year. The funny thing is how I can look at the fishes and think about how nice it would be to eat them, opps!

After much hesitation, decided on fish and co for dinner. Idk whether it is the overall standard or outlet standard that I think the vivo branch's seafood platter isn't as nice as the glass house seafood platter. Anyway this comes from someone who goes to fish and co once or twice a year, not very credible as well. :D

And this year, I feel a mixture of guilt and gratefulness while I have made my loved ones go out of the way for me; my mum cooked a delicious brunch for me (with my fav seafood), sm personally couriered over a birthday card the day before my birthday, my gfs specially went to get the rainbow cake which was out of the way and came after work to surprise me.

I guess I had unknowingly caused inconvenience for them but I'm grateful that I have them all :') thanks for tolerating my nonsense always.

I shall hope I'll be another year wiser :)

New year, new life

Adapting to my life now.

I feel blessed to have nice people in my life. Sometimes I wonder why they are so nice because they really don't have to be.

It is already the end of January, and this is my first post the year. Tired from working and don't really feel like touching my laptop after I reach home. Weekly tennis session has been something to look forward to every week and I really hope that everybody will be committed to setting aside time to meet up. Sweat it all out. But we will have a tennis break because of cny and that reminds me, I need to go back to pack my stuff.

Meeting new people makes me realise that I'm really different from the norm girls. I don't watch shows. I don't shop that often. I don't talk about dressing up. I would love to listen though. I wonder if I am slowly turning into an introvert. HAHAHA. impossible. And sometimes I just smile/laugh when I think of something funny when I walk on the street alone. Kind of scary I think?

Maybe I will grab a book and read during cny. any books to recommend?

and I heard, peak is coming.

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Bkk trip in point form

Day 1
Touched down, late dinner/supper at Chinatown

Day 2
Temple
Chatuchak market
Dinner at Platinum Mall (Yummy pretty tiny dessert)

Day 3
Floating market (boat ride) (Yummy mango sticky rice)
Temple (Nice view from the top)
Chinatown for supper (Yummy fish maw soup and bird nest soup)
Night (real) wholesale market down Chinatown (Crazy experience being chased out of the shop for the first time in my life) (and eh, no, not because I bargained for price but because I didn't understand that there was a minimum number of purchase required!)

Day 4
Rest (stayed in the hotel with my cousin to keep my aunt who was sick company)
Platinum Mall (fish maw soup for dinner (again))
Siam Paragon (Phat Thai and yummy Pineapple Rice for supper)

Day 5
Lunch at Siam Paragon (Tom Yum noodle)
Super Last minute 1 hour shopping
Airport

My memory of bkk is shop, eat, walk. little photos. interesting experience.

see the world and realise how small i am.

and be grateful for what I have and who I am. :)

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Prayers answered

Or well, half answered. Very grateful. :)

I'm starting to feel stressed already. :(

Looking forward to the trip with family :)

Thank you for giving me encouragements when I need them; for believing in me and making me believe in myself :')

Okay, I should do a proper update. I'm done with my paper and let's wait and see how I fare. Tried my best. And I should change my bad habit of taking my own sweet time during exam to do the questions. I'm amused that there's mineral water in the exam hall for candidates, though I didn't take any. I'm gonna have a very happening long weekend. Pray to my grandma, sushi, (maybe) camping, singing, tennis, and gonna go back office for one day to do data entry.

In a blink of an eye, it has been three years. I hope you are in a better place now. :)

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I can't stand having depressing post!

Having depressing sounding post will only remind me of the sad things that happened and put my sad emotions on repeat-mode. I'll say no. :)

So here goes, I have just finished our almost weekly tennis session and feeling happy that somehow we got together and I can exercise regularly! I'm a noob in it. Looking forward to improving! I love how it is funny and I can laugh at all the funny incidents during tennis. All the random stupid stuffs. And I will laugh in a very unglam manner (sorry but this is me. lol.).

C pa exams in about ten days and I'm still blur. Buck up buck up! Try my best lo.

Job search, argh........ I'm. still. looking. I feel like a stupid idiot who is forever looking for job. Maybe I'll go pray in the temple after my exams for some directions.

Looking forward to nov and dec! Fav month dec when I can meet up with all my friends! and chalet to come (hope the person booking will book in time!) ! :)

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The sad truth

We learn to be more selfish as we grow older, don't we all do?

Learn to protect ourselves in this vicious city jungle, to draw a clear line between you and me. Recent experience of juggling duties of a colleague while she goes on leave reminded me of this complicated world I am in. Thin lines between gossip, back-stabbing and just expressing our views. Ironic when A tells B something, reminding him not to tell D, but B passes it on to C who in turn passes the message on to D. Too bad for A. You have trusted the wrong guy.

Maybe this is the reason why it gets more difficult to make friends while we grow older. Sad right? Not to mention we get more opinionated as we grow older. The "I'm right and You're wrong" mentality. How many of us could truly be confident and at the same time receptive about the ideas of others? I'm learning to be one.

Still looking for a suitable job. Maybe I'm too choosy.
Good luck, please come to me *pray*

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The Power; Love

It was my first time attending a wedding meal, and whats more, it was in Malaysia. It felt nice to give blessings to the young couple and see the pretty wedding photos! It is a promise of a lifetime and I hope everything will go well for this newlywed.

Disagreements and quarrels are inevitable in a relationship. What's important is the commitment to hold on to each other no matter what, and to give and take in a relationship. Happy anniversary to us. It felt like everything just happened yesterday; how we got to know each other, how we went through the JC days, NS days, my university days, my working life, your university days. I know I may have been a little too hot-tempered at times and you have got your weakness too but we shall get through everything together alright? I'll work on my listening skills and you should work on your communication skills. lol. Tough journey ahead but I'm glad to have you with me on this journey.

Decisions decisions decisions. I need to decide what kind of job I want next. Remuneration, work scope, prospects, work-life balance, etc. Is there such thing as an ideal job? I guess everyone just need to make the best out of things. I need a bigger brain. ooooooops.

Happy Children's Day! Stay young at heart and never ever let life brings you down. <3

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Where's my shore?

I dreamt of attending driving lesson, as if it is May 2012 now and I am still in the oh-I-can-slack mode. Then I woke up and realise that I have not accomplished much these few months.

One of the times I feel uneasy about my present.

Time flies, didn't it?

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Another new Beginning

Finally, after three photo taking sessions and graduation ceremony, it struck slow me that I have graduated. No more report and presentation woes in school. No more milk tea during break time for lessons. No more rushing to class after work. Oh well but I'm still studying so yes to more mugging days ahead!

It has not been easy adapting these three and a half years. What a great relief that I have finally completed this.

To friends who struck with me these few years, I'm sure you have heard enough of my grumbles. Thank you for going through this with me. Thank you for tolerating my occasional weirdness and outburst of frustration.

And to you my bf, thanks for always encouraging me and assuring me that it's okay for me to be me.

My very pretty and expensive bear! ^^

Unfortunately, I still have no idea where I'm heading to now.
Gonna need some luck and directions!

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Dream a little dream

And then again, I am feeling low about not getting any answers, While I was hoping for some guidance somehow, from someone up there, I dreamt of going back to school for teachers' day. I met my teacher and somehow seeing him replenished my hope for life.

Thanks.

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Thank you July

Thank you July for this memory of me passing my driving test.
And showing me the possibility of things.
And reminding me how important it is to maintain a relationship to keep it going.
And how there are still nice people in this world.

And I'm (finally) gonna graduate officially in my graduation ceremony in Aug! :)

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Stay or go

Hello world!

I don't know what's there for me out there. What I know is that I have decisions to make.
The next step.


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Living in joy

I still can't really come to terms with the fact that I passed. I'm lucky to be in the group I'm in, to have managed to book that particular test session with that tester and had a regular instructor as my warm-up instructor. Almost everything that I went through in the warm-up session came up. I wake up on some days wondering if I really did pass.

However when I realised that I won't be able to drive for some time I kind of feel sad. Eww.. :(

Next stage in life but really grateful for everything! I'll remember Teachers' Day! :)


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A happy ending

I have so much to say about driving but thought perhaps I should write them in my diary.

Just, awesome.

Thankful for all the effort especially for the last session and the warm up session. :')

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Awesomest instructor

It had been a good drive today. I hope that this will be my last session of practice and the awesomest instructor actually took the effort to exchange with another instructor to go through with me my last session!

It goes like this: I am supposed to get a reminder in the morning to remind me about the session that I booked for the day and after I checked, I know it is not 77 so (ARGH) it will be another instructor. I waved to this awesome instructor at the waiting area (I'm always friendly to this and another instructor because they are also friendly to me!), thinking that he will pick up another student. However, he waved and told me to get nearer to the car, before telling me to get in. And he said he exchanged with the other instructor because this will be my last session. Okay to explain why, I would really prefer this instructor because he is humourous and he pinpoints the fatal mistake. Anyway, we did a revision of one round and I made two fatal mistakes and a couple of other mistakes. But it is okay because I would know the problem now and not make the same mistake again in my test (self-note: turn right into the right lane for number 3 and not turn together with another car side-by-side). And since this instructor is good friend with another instructor who I know is nice, I got to say a proper hi and bye to him while he was waiting for his student too. I also got to park in a drizzle, something I have always wondered about. A complete last session. Grateful for the effort from them. So nice right!

I'll be in the six and not the one!

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Graduation (soon)

Browsing through the numerous graduation photos on my facebook news feed makes me wonder how will my graduation ceremony be like. Plain, I guess. Not that many friends I have made, but enough to survive, enough to be grateful about. Without them I would miss out the important notifications, reminders, etc. I didn't do very well for people management and my time management. I'm glad that somehow I ended up in a subject I like. Grateful much, for everyone who had been there when I needed you. Bitter sweet. :')

*Sudden change of emotions*
And yes I am still waiting for the email to inform us to rent/buy our graduation gown! And still looking for my white long sleeves shirt! (As you can see) excited much! :)




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