Prayers answered

Or well, half answered. Very grateful. :)

I'm starting to feel stressed already. :(

Looking forward to the trip with family :)

Thank you for giving me encouragements when I need them; for believing in me and making me believe in myself :')

Okay, I should do a proper update. I'm done with my paper and let's wait and see how I fare. Tried my best. And I should change my bad habit of taking my own sweet time during exam to do the questions. I'm amused that there's mineral water in the exam hall for candidates, though I didn't take any. I'm gonna have a very happening long weekend. Pray to my grandma, sushi, (maybe) camping, singing, tennis, and gonna go back office for one day to do data entry.

In a blink of an eye, it has been three years. I hope you are in a better place now. :)

未你

The Power; Love

It was my first time attending a wedding meal, and whats more, it was in Malaysia. It felt nice to give blessings to the young couple and see the pretty wedding photos! It is a promise of a lifetime and I hope everything will go well for this newlywed.

Disagreements and quarrels are inevitable in a relationship. What's important is the commitment to hold on to each other no matter what, and to give and take in a relationship. Happy anniversary to us. It felt like everything just happened yesterday; how we got to know each other, how we went through the JC days, NS days, my university days, my working life, your university days. I know I may have been a little too hot-tempered at times and you have got your weakness too but we shall get through everything together alright? I'll work on my listening skills and you should work on your communication skills. lol. Tough journey ahead but I'm glad to have you with me on this journey.

Decisions decisions decisions. I need to decide what kind of job I want next. Remuneration, work scope, prospects, work-life balance, etc. Is there such thing as an ideal job? I guess everyone just need to make the best out of things. I need a bigger brain. ooooooops.

Happy Children's Day! Stay young at heart and never ever let life brings you down. <3

未你

Another new Beginning

Finally, after three photo taking sessions and graduation ceremony, it struck slow me that I have graduated. No more report and presentation woes in school. No more milk tea during break time for lessons. No more rushing to class after work. Oh well but I'm still studying so yes to more mugging days ahead!

It has not been easy adapting these three and a half years. What a great relief that I have finally completed this.

To friends who struck with me these few years, I'm sure you have heard enough of my grumbles. Thank you for going through this with me. Thank you for tolerating my occasional weirdness and outburst of frustration.

And to you my bf, thanks for always encouraging me and assuring me that it's okay for me to be me.

My very pretty and expensive bear! ^^

Unfortunately, I still have no idea where I'm heading to now.
Gonna need some luck and directions!

未你

No matter what

To have seen how some others handled their relationships and still be steadfast in my view for my loved ones, no matter what.


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Thank you July

Thank you July for this memory of me passing my driving test.
And showing me the possibility of things.
And reminding me how important it is to maintain a relationship to keep it going.
And how there are still nice people in this world.

And I'm (finally) gonna graduate officially in my graduation ceremony in Aug! :)

未你

Different perspectives

If we could all see from each other's perspective, there would be less conflict over mis-communication.

This sudden realisation calms me down from being an angry kid to a more logical (or so i think) me. But well, we will still need a lot of patience and understanding to accept each other's viewpoint, I guess. A long way to go. Friends, and our different characters.

Thanks for always being there to sort out my thread of thoughts no matter how bad my tantrum went.

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Missing out that something

I'm still pretty much clueless as to what my career path will be. Searching for that opportunity. I guess most people who have just graduated pretty much face the same scenario.

I had a stay home weekend these two days- went to sm's house for the making of rice dumpling followed by Ticket to ride board game. swam and made pasta followed by a stay-at-home-and-sleep afternoon. Becoming a pig. lol.

Back to work tmr!

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Would you be there?

I have just finished typing a  very long fb msg to two friends to explain and apologise for my behaviour. I snapped at them. I am stressed about my life and I didn't take jokes well at that point in time they spoke and evil words came gushing out (in the form of messages) from me. They were angry and disappointed.

A million times I told myself I ought to be logical and reasonable and not be sensitive to tiny little things and this time the evil in me took over me and snapped.

And I recalled this song one of these friends send me before: "Would you be there?"

Will you forgive me no matter what I've said?

未你

May day

It was three days of agony at work to realise what I was not be able to achieve. I felt disappointed with myself. And that I had over-estimated myself. Maybe its a good thing that I did not get into crazy work lifestyle in huge companies. But.. disappointment is the word.

Put that aside, I had three post-exams gathering since labour day. Girls singing out (crazily) had never felt so good. Singing is the expression of the soul. I appreciate the simple surprise planned, its the thoughts that count and I'm touched. :) Another one was a walk around Esplanade, one of my fav places in sg, though there's really nothing much to do, was simple dinner and walking around. Recalled something about planning for overseas trip and I agree that an awareness of of the feelings of others is important. and yay I'll be receiving a gel eyeliner as present! let's hope I'll find it easy to use. hehehe. Third gathering: It hit me that the person I missed is the person in my memory and not really you. My very-forgetful brain.. Awkwardness. I should stop trying to imagine that a person is better/worse than he/she is. Take life as it is and move on.

Driving today was awesome! Although I have made enough mistakes today to fail, I felt good about the whole thing. Let's hope it stays this way and wish me luck in getting a good time for driving test! (and it's two months of waiting time. -_- ) Had a whole lot of evil laughter today! HAHAHA. =P

I feel sad when we quarrel about things everytime. However after every argument, I feel glad that I found you who is willing to stick with me to solve the problems together. Thank you and thank fate to have let me meet you. :)

<<random pic i found that i drew. >>

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Whining

I. Still. Have. Not. Secure. Another. Job. Rawrrrrrrrrr.

Politics at work, trying not to step on any mine but I think I did, accidentally. Peace. It's difficult to be nice to everyone. Still manageable I guess. Anyway back-stabbers won't tell u they have stabbed u on the back so I have no way of telling. Just focus on my job. Still doing okay, fortunately.

I had a couple of weird dreams recently, I felt much for a particular one because it thought me to think about what "responsibilities" guys have in a relationship. I felt that it's the nicer part of me trying to remind me not to be too mean to sm. Oops. Okay, point taken.

Many places I wish to visit. Somehow the places just add up and there's a long list. Let's see how I plan my time and whether I can get people out. Wee~

Driving had been bad. So many bad habits to change. Omg. $.$ nevertheless, it has been a really good experience.

锦上添花，不如雪中送炭。

Plus U ltra leads us further

I went back to j j with sm a few days ago, randomly to visit his teachers. (The emphasise is because I always have the feeling that my tutors never liked me for my poor results and I wasn't the shiny star in my class. Anyway I don't like some tutors too.)

We spoke to his form teacher, a chatty PHD-holder who tried to persuade sm into joining the teaching career and teach j c students. It felt funny how he was so friendly to us.

We saw another sm's teacher, who I look up to. Throughout the two years of my j c life and I wished that he was my phy tutor. He's humourous, takes pride in teaching, and makes concepts clear! Eww.. And he remembers me as sm's gf because we went back together before ! That made my day. :) The working life of this teacher is different from the PHD teacher because he ends work at 7+pm, but seems to find teaching career satisfying..

I tried to look for my own form teacher but she's not around so I guess not fated to see her. To be honest, I'm afraid that she will drop insensitive remarks because she has always emphasised on the importance of going to local uni and she's a PHD holder as well (It felt as if j c level chemistry/studies had never been too hard for her to understand) Nevertheless, she was kind to help me between the period of time from prelim to a - level and I respect her for that. Logical teacher. Maybe I should think about going to see her again.

I really wonder if sm is gonna go into teaching, hahahaha..

未你

Random memory of Taiwan trip

Just recalled an incident in Taiwan which I locked and changed my luggage lock (unknowingly) in the hotel room. And of cos I was in a panic to solve the lock because I needed to take something from the luggage bag before we head out for the day. I was fortunate to have sm to logically try the code one by one and he solved it in after around 10min.

This incident made me realized that each of us makes silly mistakes, and we need each other to overcome each other's shortcoming.

We need to learn from each unfortunate accident/incident and become a better person. This should be the conclusion for my last blog post. And the twist of this story is that I did an illogical action by buying the first 4D ticket of my lifetime. Lol. :)

Zoooooooooooo. And I love giraffe and the girls of cos! :)

Entertained much

Mon, tues, thurs, fri, sat, sun this week! Gonna have my fav lesson. Always entertained much by the slacker-instructor; he'll talk about his worst experience, best experience (seldom), daily grumbles (about work), updating phone software, rest day activities, etc. Lol. The other instructor, the stricter instructor is nice too! He reminds me of another friend of mine, kan chiong spider.

Sorted out my thinking. Shall remind myself that having a simple life is a way to have blessed life too. I know I'm afraid of not being able to meet my own expectations. and life is so unpredictable for the time to come!

Have faith in each other and work things out, together. Believe.


I will tame my temper.

A busy valentine's day

This year's valentine's day is busier than ever.

Started the morning with an interview, which did not land me in a job which I was hoping to get into, unfortunately. I just felt that there is something wrong. Well, learning to take things in my stride.

As the interview ended way earlier than I have expected it to, I went home, took a shower before going out for weeeeeeeeee~ haha. Each lesson is a new experience and there's more to watch out for. I shall admit that I'm quite disappointed that my progress is very slow. Let's hope i'll get all the things right and improve much!

After that I travelled to Han 's and to my surprise, I reached there earlier than sm. Forgot what I did there but anyway then we went to bugis and had ramen for dinner. Simple and nice! And I had coax sm into walking to have ice-cream at haji lane successfully! I heard that there's a nice ice-cream shop there that serves interesting ice-cream, like squid ink flavour and since I have not been to haji lane, I wanted to give it a shot! I'm quite disappointed by the limited number of flavours though; Tom 's Palette and Daily S coop is better, in my opinion. Or Once upon a M ilkshake, for a cozy and pretty environment. And we walked to plaza sing from there! Sm must be feeling that he should be extra nice to me that's why he agreed to walk to plaza sing with me. (Background story: he hates to walk long distance). We ended that day with neoprints and pinball at arcade. :)

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Our boyfriends

I met up with two gfs last fri and had a good time discussing what our boyfriends do- the nonsense we tolerate. Girls talk has always been an enjoyable experience. Sharing session of the good and bad experiences :)

As much as I sound irritated, I feel blessed and fortunate that you found me and I found you. Thanks for reminding me how important family is.

Went to make small cny munchie cake on Sunday. Wee~

AND, I'm not done with my packing! xp

Taiwan for New Year 2012!

Gonna briefly note down the things we did:

Day 1
We reached Changi Airport at around 5.30~6.00am, checked in our luggage and had mac breakfast. Following which we board the plane and by the time we reached tw Taoyuan Airport was around noon. Searched for the youth card registration details and free-go bus from airport to hotel (of course, and also how we should travelled from hotel back to Taoyuan on the last day). By the time we checked in to Pink Lotus Hotel was around 3~pm. We went for a steamboat lunch/dinner nearby which had 甘蔗汤 (which I don't understand because the stock didn't taste extra sweet like sugar cane juice would) and free-flow salad bar. Nightfall comes early during this time of the year and it was quite dark by the time we left the restaurant. And we went to 士林夜市。

Day 2
Exploring the hot spring facilities after breakfast
淡水 (bought the tall ice-cream, a puff full of red bean paste, ah gei and 铁蛋 )
渔人码头
Photo-taking day  ^_^v ^_^v ^_^v ^_^v
Steak, bead and soup dinner.

Day 3
Breakfast at hotel before we checked out and moved to Kingshi Hotel at Xi Men Ding.
Wanted to visit the SM Entertainment store but forgot to note down the exact address.
Walked around Taipei Main Station.
Xin wasn't feeling well so xin and jac went back to the hotel first while sm and I walked through the shops at Taipei Main Station and went to Ferris wheel! Rushed for dinner because we wanted to get back in time to queue for the only all-around transparent carriage. So scary inside! Viewed the night scenery of Taipei. Bought Digimon Movie 1. Legs gave way so we went back to have dim sum supper.

Day 4
Tour Taipei day! We went to the SM Entertainment and bought the rest of the digimon movies (I find it funny that when others go SM Entertainment store to buy merchandise for their idols, we were there to buy digimon cartoon movies). Next, we went to J ay Chou's Secret Theme restaurant! wee~ One of my fav movies. :) Following that was the visit to Taipei 101 and 饶河夜市。

Day 5
Originally planned to go Jiu Fen but it was raining all morning and the weather forecast predicted that there will be 80% chance of rain.Thus, we started our morning with k-singing at party world. I find it nice that there is a personal toilet attached to the room. Funny that Xin and sm decrypted that taiwan "han yu pin yin" into our chinese "han yu pin yin". This made our finding for songs easier. Next, we went to watch the guard changing ceremony and ding tai feng for lunch/dinner. Ended our last night by scouting food at 士林夜市 。

Day 6 (Last day)
Sm and I went back to Taipei Main Station to look for the souvenir keychains and we had our last of 50 lan2 milk tea and food before we went back to xi men ding to do the last minute shopping. Bought Ah Zong Mian Xian to airport to eat. Much comfort from the warm food :) Bought bread as well. Cold feet on the airplane. Had supper at mac before we left.


We will learn from our mistakes and improve together, love. <3
未你

Christmas 2011

We had a long htht on christmas eve.
I appreciate friends who had endured with sm and I to talk about our disagreements. "Communication" is listed as the number one thing we have to work on.
Will do. Encourage and not enforce. Love much.
I feel so blessed to have sm and my friends.

And I have finally completed the knitting of scarf, yay!
Looking forward to a good 2012!
So many things that I want to complete.

New year resolution: Tame my temper.

未你

62nd :)

You are the constant reminder of how awesome i am. And I love the idea of how stuffing cheesecake into your mouth can shut our argument :) had several arguments recently, but can't rmb most of the details already.

I amused by how I can find some msges from other females to you amusing. Maybe because I don't view them as a threat, yet.

Happily 62nd :) wee.. Green crocodile tooth dentist.

That comfortable feeling

Last Friday was lesson followed by a short meet-up to buy tickets for sat movie, Tin Tin, followed by dinner and ice-cream with m :) ice-cream brings comfort to the soul. And the knot in my heart regarding c is finally untied after our talk over ice-cream. You know that feeling that you love someone and you can't bear to lose him/her but it didn't matter to him/her at all? And to me, it's this feeling towards a friend. There's no point brooding over it because it really didn't matter. Why be involved in an one-sided relationship? Of course, we are still friends, I guess, just not that kind of super close kind.

I went to j's 5th birthday celebration on sat. A group of us helped the small boy to open his present. That includes transforming the transformer. Yes, I can understand finally why transformer toys are popular among kids, maybe some adults too.

And so, I have become a detective, in my dream. This is the result of watching Criminal Minds and CSI.

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Rationalisation

When we rationalise, we tend to put each other at fault. Though it is natural that this happens, we should always think about how we could each change for the better while we pin point each other's mistake.

-note to self