Trying to balance School, Work, and Life.

How forgetful can I get?
I conveniently forgot that I would have many projects and test to follow up to in a semester even though I'm supposed to be only doing this part-time studies. Just realised I have got 6 reports, 3 individual, 3 group to do, and 1 test. I'm so scared of doing individual report because I don't know how to do referencing (yes, EVEN after the many projects because my group members are the ones doing the referencing and hence i have been able to avoid doing it). And I'm afraid that I'll conveniently forget about the project altogether and forgot the due date. x.x


I immersed myself in work, and forgot about school. OH NO! Need to wake up already.


未你

can't match

can't match can't match, i can't match,
this whole lot of nonsense, i can't match.


未你

I'm different because I'm special.

Live like myself, and that's the best I can be.

I'm different because I'm special :)

Live love laugh

未你

Have you ever felt this way?

Caution.This is gonna be a sad post.



I have gotta rant this out because this has been bothering me for quite some time.
Have you ever love a friend, only to realise much later that he/she doesn't love you back as much?
In this case, Love=Friendship .

Some time back, I thought that you have left me for good, because although we had a lot of good memories together, we are essentially different. I was the one who chose a different environment from you, fearing that i may lose you, in front of me. I don't want to be seen as a shadow, and I want to be happy to be me. I want to be me. Nevertheless, I wanted to stay in contact with you. Maybe time was a big concern back then. And we drifted away. I tried, more than once to pull you nearer to me, but it all failed. And then, after I have decided to give up, miraculously, as if my prayers were answered, you came back. And, I believed in you. Believe that you would never ever do what you have did to me before, again.





And then you did.


I'm probably the one who's getting over-sensitive this time.
And so, I hope I'll just wake up next morning feeling stupid that I have felt the way I feel.

Yes, cheers to a better day. :D


to all this small blog's readers out there, i would very much prefer you not to guess who's the person.

未你

Amazing 2010

Year 2010 has been an amazing year.
It started off with a blast with my very first overseas trip organized by friends to genting. No doubt it was a short trip, it has been nice travelling with friends. :) then it was an surprise celebration that I have co-organized with a friend. He went quite high during that celebration too. Lol.
And it was ORD! It shouldn't have sound like it has anything to do with me, but it was! It was as though I went through it okay. Though it didn't experienced it physically, I experienced it mentally and emotionally. It was a tough one year and ten months with nonsense and a great deal of getting used to, especially the restricted amount of time we have everyday and the gloomy Sunday nights, both for you and me. I'm so glad that we have got over it.
Then the next big thing was the first cny that I have came across before, that falls on 14feb, otherwise known as vday.
Then it was one of my best friends birthday in march. Though it was only a simple steamboat dinner, I'm so happy for her. And then there were another two close friends' celebration and I'm so happy for them too because they had also enjoyed the celebrations. Then came April where I broke down with the stress of work, projects and exams. I had almost wanted to call off my birthday party because I had too much to handle. I'm fortunate to have sm helped me with the logistic and I only had to care about my guest list and to make some decisions.
Then came end of April where my mugging time increased as I had taken leave from my work.
May was a blast with my party (=^_^=) and some celebrations and catch up. May and June was fun because it was school holidays(yup, I continued working at the same time, all the while). I should pause here to say there I sincerely enjoyed all the birthday parties that I have attended and I'm so happy for my friends who have had their party and at a great time.
And so I continued to attend parties and in July, it was to uss. So pretty! Although I was terrified by that small mummy rollarcoaster, I'm glad that I have tried! It sure has been a scary experience but also an amazing one because I'm proud of myself that I have gone through it. No regrets :)
In aug, it was sm's turn. I know I wasn't much of a help to the party, both for the organizing and for the actual day but I'm glad that everything has turned out well for him :) it was a headache when it comes to buying presents but luckily, I had a idea and he had a new need, hostel. Lol.
I have attended another surprise birthday party for another bestie and I saw how loving they are and I am truly happy for her. Then, I realized whatone could enjoy, if you have money. That is not in my own spending range. Different background. It's cool anyway.
Next came was end of sept. It was our fourth anniversary and we had only simple dinner but it was simply nice. And we made our rings (again ;))
In oct, I went to a memorable birthday celebration. It wasn't at any grand place, it was in front of a shop at a housing estate. They had everything necessary for party and it sure was the wild-est party I have ever attended. Then, I understood what they mean by that a family shapes how a child (or rather, a person's) character.
Oct was another crazy stress-filled month as I juggled with my job and studies, and this time, I fared badly. Phew. I don't know how I'm going to get through this another two times but I will, I believe :) . Alright, back to my main idea, nov and dec was enjoy and "let's go out days" after work. I hope I have done enough of encouraging you and had motivated you enough, you-know-who. I'm pretty dumb when it comes to encouraging you =/
anyway, I co-made a banner for a best friend. We were so proud of our self-painted banner. Lol.
Dec was filled with fun and I had an eye-opener when I went to stayover at mbs hotel ^^ the sky pool is simply awesome! The best pool that I have ever seen and swam in.
Christmas period was stayover and catch up with friends. Had the "wettest BBQ" and fun!
New year eve was all sort of impromptu decisions, and everything fall in nicely in the end, our first countdown together.


I'm contented with such an amazing 2010 :)


未你

:( as the year is coming to an end and school is starting soon

My temper has not been good today. Terrible. I gotta find some way to unwind and get rid of this stress of sch starting, even though school has not start yet. I'm tired of getting through the same stress over and over again. Goshhhhh. =x

未你

To the nerd in my life, some thoughts about year 2010

I know, I have not really been kind with my words to you, and you are not good with words at times too. We have quite some disagreements this year, regarding various issues. It has not been easy for the both of us as we both took a huge lap for life and get used to changes. For me, it's working life and for you, it's freedom and studies.

I'm glad that you have entered my life and made me realise how simple life could be. At the same time, both of us has changed, for the better, for ourselves and for each other. Thanks for being there when I needed a shoulder to lean on.

It's gonna be a long road ahead of us, and with you(and your patience =P), let's hold on to each other :)

未你

The best christmas gift

It wasn't anything gift that k has given me, it was some advice which he has told me. That half an hour chat gave me some directions in life, and it isn't conparable in terms of monetary value. I'm still pretty clueless about my life after graduation(in a year's time) and hence I'm still searching. His past experience are valuable to me. Branding yourself in this society is important, he said. And I kind of have a direction now, which is to "suffer" the horrible, long hours working condition and learn all I could while I'm still young. But I really haven't make up my mind, it's pretty difficult, you see. Sometimes, I feel so alone on this path, please shed me some light and lead me through.

未你

And off we go to imm.

I bought some stuff for hair today, nice! lol. *self-indulged*
Unfortunately, we still did not manage to find the takoyaki pan. :( . I guess I'll have to wait till I go japan to buy one. Because the "cheaper" one doesn't look good and the expensive ones are expensive. And now I know why takoyaki are expensive, because the pans are expensive.
Time flies when I was there with my twin and till the next time we meet! :) don't be too emo okay, always look on the bright side of life!

I am still searching for idea as to what to get for my company christmas exchange gift and another friend's christmas exchange gift. argh. I forgot to buy something for some other friends. =/ hohoho. christamas is coming. I like the cool weather. Please let it be freezing at night so that i can use my beloved blanket. lol. <3

and you, jia you to study! mug man is not alone! :) ntu ppl, jia you, it will be over soon! :)

未你

Some thoughts about relationships

A chat with w again.
And this time, she's determined to keep the cold war going, if j is not going to speak out first. What i don't understand is, how can one stand not talking to someone so near and dear to you? Cold war is not the way to solve problems, however, it does seem like the best way in this case, because nothing else can be done. Is it that relationships are fragile or that human's behaviour are not steadfast enough to keep us holding to our values?

People change (yes i know, and i accept that). so how can someone believe that another person will be there for him/her, for good times and for bad?

and there are so many people who one should take their life with a pinch of salt. trust, but not completely.

An eye-opener

It was a long thursday that I had.

First was the release of my results. Oh crap. Worst that I have ever done so far, four grades lower than the previous semester. Perhaps I had over-estimated my own ability. Utterly disappointed in my own ability.

Then I started recalling about that remark that you have made. Am I not good enough?

I was on my own to sort out stuff at work. It feels like i'm battling alone when i'm at work sometimes.

Hence, because of reasons stated above, I was grumpy throughout the day.

However, things changed at night. We talked about it and sorted things out.

And we went to celebrate a friend's birthday at mbs. As what she has described, "ah-tas" is the word. Everything is so nice, especially the sky pool! It looks like there is no limits to the pool. It is the nicest pool I have ever seen! I appreciate her inviting us to stay over and the bath robe for the swimming pool. :) It was freezing in the morning when we went down to the water but all was worth it. Super super nice. An eye-opener. It felt like I was in some paradise(okay, maybe this is a little exaggerated) and that I was removed from my sickening job.

Practise what you preach??

A famous saying:

Practise what you preach.

But how many of us are guilty of not doing that?

Chinatown, people from different walk of life.

At Chinatown, I see people from different walk of life. There are not-so-glam uncles and aunties, but also people wearing office attire and not to forget, tourists around. There are shops selling noodles at $2.50, but there are also shops selling sharks' fin and abalone.

I find it interesting to see all these different types of people, especially tourists. I wonder what they think about Singapore. Well, I think Chinatown is not just "little china" (yes, although there is quite a number of china nationality around), it is a hybrid of different community in this small area. I wonder when's my penpal going to come. lol.

On a side note, yeah, I have finally gone to maxwell food centre! I went there for lunch today, haa :) And it is not as far as I thought.

i'm evil. yup. don't mumble when u speak, i can't hear u.

Wisdom tooth = wisdom?

I suspect that there is a wisdom tooth growing, but I really don't know. I am just not able to close my mouth fully as the last tooth or gum, or whatever I can't see clearly will be pain. I have had several toothache recently. It's strange because I always have toothache near exam periods. Why? =/

Made an appointment with the polyclinic and it is morning 8.10am at jurong. Feels like as if I have to wake up early to go jj to attend classes. So early =/  And it is an appointment next year, just before chinese new year. =//

Blog template finally done

Oh yeah, I spent a few days to finish doing up this blog. Yup, kind of slow because I was exploring photoshop. However, I can't really remember the functions that can be used inside. So ended up with only a small micro change.

Anyway, that aside, I'm so proud of this little blog I have set up now.

Life have been mundane. I have been trying to recall where I have stopped for the different work I was doing, some which I have stopped since july or september. On my own now. Grumbles about work will be never ending so I shall just stop here. Back to work! :)

a new beginning

Oh yes, I am still choosing colours to put for my blog. :) and brainstorming for a blog name.