More and more

One of those days that I feel emotionally overwhelmed about what I have and what I need to work hard for. 

And how short-term minded I have had all along. :')

Start again

As I am sitting on the sofa thinking about how march has been so far, I am in awe what I have done. Travelled to istanbul for one week before I began my new job with a different yet related field to the previous job.

I am still adjusting to the time I need to coax myself to go to bed in order to catch enough rest for the day. You can imagine when you hope for something so bad and finally when it comes, you just can hardly believe that it happened?

Thank you fate or whatever/whoever that made this happen. :')

Second guess

There is something that has been bugging me for some time but that now I really think about it, I am not sure whether I am second guessing too much. Well but it sucks to have to second guess sometimes. That's life, isn't it? (Food for thought)

Anyway I came across this phrase that's says "when you feel like giving up, rmb why you started". I really really hope that the reason is good enough when the time comes the next time round. :)

Another precious cny <3

Lotsa faith

Maybe it is time for me to walk out from my own shadow. Getting me nowhere. Have faith. Lotsa faith.

Kallang trivista

Cannot contain my excitement for the new house although we are currently expecting a cash flow problem when the time comes but well, I guess things will work out!

Took this (imho, gorgeous) photo of the site yesterday. But no, you can't see my flat cos my flat is not facing the mrt track. :) counting my happiness each day while I can. Let's hope that things will only get better :)

Goodbye 2014 :')

Let's just say... The second part of 2014 has been sucky. Really sucky that I still cannot contain my anger and sadness about what happened but I really wanna keep this to myself so pls don't bother asking me what happened.

Anyways. I learnt that we could choose to not be kind and only make the choices that would be beneficial to us and bad for the other(s). But I also learnt that doing that will ultimately equate you as 不忠不孝，不仁不义... Very exaggerated right haha. That's in my humble opinion only anyway. So... Choose to be kind. And also choose to be kind to those who deserve it and those who need it. I have received kind acts from some and I will be forever grateful to. 

Thanks for letting k for letting me know that life can still move on with the setback and that I am not the only one, for letting me know that this is not the end of the world. Thanks p for showering me with acts of kindness and telling me not to give up. Thanks k for being inspirational in realizing your dreams and talking to me like I am not a handicapped and that I am normal.

As for the others, esp I know who, I hope that one day you know how I felt or feel the same kind of feelings that I felt. I am trying not to blame you but whenever I think about the under table tactics that you are doing, I can't help but sigh at your lack of empathy and shortsightedness.

This year has been a bad one but I can't move on from this. Kind of struck but I hope I will see the light at the end of the tunnel soon. Light... Pls shine on me soon hahaha...

Thanks to m for keeping me sane and having something to look forward to. My alarm tags remind me about what I should look forward to in life.

I choose to be thankful for the good things that happened. Thank you 2014 we can say goodbye now :')

Dots in my life

I wish I could connect the dots forward (instead of backwards) now and know why this happened to me.

Need to sleep. Xoxo to myself.

Breathe

Gotta believe that everything happens for a reason. Have some faith, I tell myself.

Wings to fly

Came up with an emo poem a few days after overtime at work. It goes:

Sometimes I look at the sky

and wonder how high I can fly

then I realized

I have no wings to dive in the sky

So emo I felt paiseh to share with others scare those who care worry about me. On the other hand I am proud of my poem writing skills HAHAHA. =P

The more we get together

One year ago, I was still resisting to the idea of getting married although I have an awesome bf whom I am attached to for 8+ years and counting. Because of the changes that will come marriage.

But recently, I came to realize that we need to have hope in life to live a life that we will love. Hope, can be such a beautiful thing. So today, wearing the t-shirt that my bf folded (inside story), I am posting this post. 

Many many more disagreements but also many many more chance for me to annoy you ;). Happily 97th month :)

What's the next step?

When everything seems to fit perfectly in my life, shit happens.

But there's still a lot to look forward to, especially building a home together :')
Sketched a drawing before I slept last night w the image of our home in the future HAHA like children sketch only.

Anyway, came back from a 8days trip from Taiwan last week. I love travelling and love travelling  in Taiwan. There are mountains and mountains and mountains! ^^ see u again taiwan, will definitely travel there again in the future :). Now, back to reality. Need to study hard for my CPA papers. omgoshhhhh. -.-"

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Post peak withdrawal syndrome

This is crazy lol.

But getting ready for leave during off peak can be so stressful. Well at least the workload during peak is constantly crazy lol, whereas now is the I-must-finish-my-work-so-as-to-not-be-a-burden. Just counting down every single day and want to finish my work before I go on leave. I can do this! 

And I am wishing for good luck for I-know-what lol. Good night world :)

Short reflection about life

Went along with m's friend on a two days one night road trip to Kukup last weekend and thought a lot about life in general. It was my first time (with the intention) of meeting them (previously saw mi on m's otw home and j in school coincidentally) and this is also my first time traveling to m'sia in a car.

The itinerary was... No itinerary. We bought a watermelon after a random lunch along the way to our accommodation kindly sponsored by e's family. Walked around the k-long with fishes, sat on the boat around, seafood dinner (fresh fish with other simple dishes), went back "home" and was greeted with rambutan (on top of the maybe ten-odd kindly given by a random person who walked to our table during our lunch and gave to us), mangosteen, durian. In addition, we had prawn with flour deep fried pancake. We went to set of a cheaper substitute of fireworks and 天灯 in the outdoor. Next day we went to jb to shop at ksl shopping mall for a while before going to seafood dinner with crab, crayfish, fish, sweet potato leave, tofu.

Lots of htht and what really inspired me is the attitude to succeed in everyone of them. The kind of belief they have and the problems they face. No, not like they grumbled. Each of them have their own goals and targets to achieve and they put in hardwork and never say die attitude. Respect much.

A good brunch to travel with probably because everyone everything also okay.

Am grateful. Life is good this way. :')

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Driving in the rain

Tonight's downpour reminded me of my last lesson at Bbdc when I did vertical and parallel parking in the rain.

And of course all the life lessons I learned during driving. With the super humorous instructor and the super naggy instructor.

And how life is so frail.

And that's why I always encourage others to pick up driving because I would say that it is a milestone in my life to have learned driving and passed driving test. 

Thank you rain for reminding me of these precious memories :') good night world~

The story of rainbow

"Everybody wants happiness and nobody wants pain. But you can't get a rainbow without a little bit of rain."

Reminding myself about this every single day. Now good night Wednesday, tata :)

Bad day; good day.

I had a bad fall while walking down the stairs this morning. I was using my phone and I missed the last step and the next thing I knew, I was on the ground. So embarrassing. I swear never to use phone when I am using the stairs again (let's hope I will stick to this).

My department decided to hold the cny lunch at a hotel in sentosa this year. That very hotel I attended my j c graduation night. And my colleague had to remind me how awful some teenagers look with too much blusher/eye shadow/eyeliner/powder during prom night. Haha that phrase when one tries to look like an adult and play with makeup.

(I am going to do the...) oh how time flies!

Lunch has been a good opportunity to talk to some colleagues who I haven't had chance to talk to usually. Good :) okie peak soon! Just hope I won't become a pig (both: slog like a pig or look like a pig)

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Year 2013

Yes this is long overdue. I have been wanting to summarise my year 2013 since two months ago but just never got down to doing it.

Full blown from my job for the first 7 months of the year. There is just so many things to learn and ask and catch up and learn and do and catch up and... You get what I mean. I have learnt so much and this job really opens up my eyes to this world out there. Things got much better after I changed my seat in oct with the girls and really grateful for them. And also because second half of the year is more off peak. Study, travel overseas, study, exam, travel overseas pretty much summed up the exciting things that happened. Finally bought my iphone too <3 And at the end of the year I realized I didn't save up as much as I thought I did. Oops.  Spent too much sigh.


Family wise... Renovation of my house for kitchen, bathroom and toilet area. A week worth of bathing in temporary "box". And my brother's injury. Life is frail.  Too much personal  information haha I don't wanna reveal here.

Relationship wise... I should say the seven year itch is really true for my relationship. >.>  but everything is fine don't worry, we always work things out. and the one thing that we had no control over is the b t o in my area. Unlucky as we can be. What to do. (Insert crying face) 😭 never mind I shall hope that 好心有好报 and we have better luck next time. If you ever read this post, thank you for always being patient with me and can accept my flaws. 

Friends wise... I am thankful for friends who make an effort to stay close to me and grateful for tolerating my nonsense hahaha. Always recharged after meeting my friends and how heartwarming it is to meet up and catch up over a meal. Good friends not only make me feel happy about meeting them but also slowly (but surely) mould me into who I am today.

Very happy about our weekly tennis, Bangkok trip with colleagues and not forgetting to mention Korea trip! Finally got down to weekly exercise, thanks to everyone who committed to it and also willing to spend time on sat night in this sport. Not forgetting the supper after some sessions. Weekly rant about life. Discovered more about Bangkok with the girls and I particularly love the trip to baiyoke sky. Love the food we had too. Korea trip is almost life changing for me. Okay I know I am being overly dramatic about it. Seen snow for the first time, so pretty!

Eww let's hope year 2014 will be even more awesome. <3

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Maybe earth span a lil' faster this year

Haven't been here for a long time. Hi blog, how have you been?

I haven't had time to note down what happened this half a year but I feel that I have grown up a lot. Well, in pain I shall learn. So, this is working life.

Shall quote a colleague's words: The thing about working with female superior is... somedays, you just don't know what went wrong; maybe she just woke up from the wrong side of the bed.

Almost weekly tennis session kept me saint. Glad I have this group of tennis buddies. Kept me going through the peak. :)

And now I am really just waiting till end of August to listen to your decision which is gonna affect us both.

Not really thinking straight now and can only write in point form and till the next post! Thankful for all the love that I have received.

P.s. never thought I would be able to love my tennis racket more until I recently changed the grip. Very much prefers the previous grip's texture but I am so in love with this colour! <3 I am still very much a bimbo, judging a racket's colour more than its performance. yay!

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Missing out so many things in life

I wish I could clear my work faster and better but I really didn't manage and not able to. And I have to make choices which to forsake: sleep, family or friends. I know I can't do this forever and I am counting down to off-peak days!

Oh god, please make me more efficient!

Another year older

I decided to give myself a break on my birthday from work this year. Bought the tickets to sentosa rws aquarium this year. The funny thing is how I can look at the fishes and think about how nice it would be to eat them, opps!

After much hesitation, decided on fish and co for dinner. Idk whether it is the overall standard or outlet standard that I think the vivo branch's seafood platter isn't as nice as the glass house seafood platter. Anyway this comes from someone who goes to fish and co once or twice a year, not very credible as well. :D

And this year, I feel a mixture of guilt and gratefulness while I have made my loved ones go out of the way for me; my mum cooked a delicious brunch for me (with my fav seafood), sm personally couriered over a birthday card the day before my birthday, my gfs specially went to get the rainbow cake which was out of the way and came after work to surprise me.

I guess I had unknowingly caused inconvenience for them but I'm grateful that I have them all :') thanks for tolerating my nonsense always.

I shall hope I'll be another year wiser :)