Missing out that something

I'm still pretty much clueless as to what my career path will be. Searching for that opportunity. I guess most people who have just graduated pretty much face the same scenario.

I had a stay home weekend these two days- went to sm's house for the making of rice dumpling followed by Ticket to ride board game. swam and made pasta followed by a stay-at-home-and-sleep afternoon. Becoming a pig. lol.

Back to work tmr!

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Would you be there?

I have just finished typing a  very long fb msg to two friends to explain and apologise for my behaviour. I snapped at them. I am stressed about my life and I didn't take jokes well at that point in time they spoke and evil words came gushing out (in the form of messages) from me. They were angry and disappointed.

A million times I told myself I ought to be logical and reasonable and not be sensitive to tiny little things and this time the evil in me took over me and snapped.

And I recalled this song one of these friends send me before: "Would you be there?"

Will you forgive me no matter what I've said?

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Sun & Joy

Photo from last last weekend. Love cycling at ecp. Love the sun and the cloud.
It's time to explore the outdoors again! :)
Bare your sole next!
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Need

Because I'll need to learn to take things in my stride; To accept the reality.

Leisure (W. H. Davies)

WHAT is this life if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.




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May day

It was three days of agony at work to realise what I was not be able to achieve. I felt disappointed with myself. And that I had over-estimated myself. Maybe its a good thing that I did not get into crazy work lifestyle in huge companies. But.. disappointment is the word.

Put that aside, I had three post-exams gathering since labour day. Girls singing out (crazily) had never felt so good. Singing is the expression of the soul. I appreciate the simple surprise planned, its the thoughts that count and I'm touched. :) Another one was a walk around Esplanade, one of my fav places in sg, though there's really nothing much to do, was simple dinner and walking around. Recalled something about planning for overseas trip and I agree that an awareness of of the feelings of others is important. and yay I'll be receiving a gel eyeliner as present! let's hope I'll find it easy to use. hehehe. Third gathering: It hit me that the person I missed is the person in my memory and not really you. My very-forgetful brain.. Awkwardness. I should stop trying to imagine that a person is better/worse than he/she is. Take life as it is and move on.

Driving today was awesome! Although I have made enough mistakes today to fail, I felt good about the whole thing. Let's hope it stays this way and wish me luck in getting a good time for driving test! (and it's two months of waiting time. -_- ) Had a whole lot of evil laughter today! HAHAHA. =P

I feel sad when we quarrel about things everytime. However after every argument, I feel glad that I found you who is willing to stick with me to solve the problems together. Thank you and thank fate to have let me meet you. :)

<<random pic i found that i drew. >>

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Whining

I. Still. Have. Not. Secure. Another. Job. Rawrrrrrrrrr.

Politics at work, trying not to step on any mine but I think I did, accidentally. Peace. It's difficult to be nice to everyone. Still manageable I guess. Anyway back-stabbers won't tell u they have stabbed u on the back so I have no way of telling. Just focus on my job. Still doing okay, fortunately.

I had a couple of weird dreams recently, I felt much for a particular one because it thought me to think about what "responsibilities" guys have in a relationship. I felt that it's the nicer part of me trying to remind me not to be too mean to sm. Oops. Okay, point taken.

Many places I wish to visit. Somehow the places just add up and there's a long list. Let's see how I plan my time and whether I can get people out. Wee~

Driving had been bad. So many bad habits to change. Omg. $.$ nevertheless, it has been a really good experience.

锦上添花，不如雪中送炭。

Plus U ltra leads us further

I went back to j j with sm a few days ago, randomly to visit his teachers. (The emphasise is because I always have the feeling that my tutors never liked me for my poor results and I wasn't the shiny star in my class. Anyway I don't like some tutors too.)

We spoke to his form teacher, a chatty PHD-holder who tried to persuade sm into joining the teaching career and teach j c students. It felt funny how he was so friendly to us.

We saw another sm's teacher, who I look up to. Throughout the two years of my j c life and I wished that he was my phy tutor. He's humourous, takes pride in teaching, and makes concepts clear! Eww.. And he remembers me as sm's gf because we went back together before ! That made my day. :) The working life of this teacher is different from the PHD teacher because he ends work at 7+pm, but seems to find teaching career satisfying..

I tried to look for my own form teacher but she's not around so I guess not fated to see her. To be honest, I'm afraid that she will drop insensitive remarks because she has always emphasised on the importance of going to local uni and she's a PHD holder as well (It felt as if j c level chemistry/studies had never been too hard for her to understand) Nevertheless, she was kind to help me between the period of time from prelim to a - level and I respect her for that. Logical teacher. Maybe I should think about going to see her again.

I really wonder if sm is gonna go into teaching, hahahaha..

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Choices

Life is about making choices that mattered to you. Chat with instructor taught me more than driving skills. And I think i'm evil in some of my remarks. OKAY. Shall not be so evil. And I realised humour is such a beautiful thing. Having empathy is such a nice trait too.

Listening and finding out more about the family of these two instructors made me realised that happy family can be maintained if one put in hardwork. I wonder how my future will be in the future after I get married. And I think men with a family to work hard for are so charming.

Feels weird to have my driving lesson cut down to only one or two per week.


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Walking down the Memory Lane

I spent 4 hours of my time last night, not to spend time with friends but to sort out all the cards and letters I have received thus far. The numerous letters that I exchanged with my friends during secondary school days reminded me of the silly teenage days I had. I would be a different me if I wasn't in g e ss.

I learnt so much from all my friends, good or bad, during those days. It is very sweet to read the letters/cards again, knowing that there's always someone there for me, even though I have my irritating side. ewww.. There were also funny quarrel letters that we sent each other to pin-point the unhappiness we had for each other for some. And after reading them, I'm more certain than ever to keep friends who stayed by me through thick and thin.

Thankful much. :') Meaningful sat night.

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Random memory of Taiwan trip

Just recalled an incident in Taiwan which I locked and changed my luggage lock (unknowingly) in the hotel room. And of cos I was in a panic to solve the lock because I needed to take something from the luggage bag before we head out for the day. I was fortunate to have sm to logically try the code one by one and he solved it in after around 10min.

This incident made me realized that each of us makes silly mistakes, and we need each other to overcome each other's shortcoming.

We need to learn from each unfortunate accident/incident and become a better person. This should be the conclusion for my last blog post. And the twist of this story is that I did an illogical action by buying the first 4D ticket of my lifetime. Lol. :)

Zoooooooooooo. And I love giraffe and the girls of cos! :)

Okay, when I'm not.

It's not so bad if it is a once-off feeling; It's bad when it is a feeling of remorse, guilt and feeling of failure as if I can never do better and beat my old self. I used to look forward to each session of driving and each served as a motivation for me to carry on with my mundane life. Unfortunately, it has since became a burden that I'm holding on. But I'm not gonna let this continue. Never ever.

I didn't want to write about driving because I was afraid that I'll jinx it somehow, as if that someone above will cast out my name if I were to proclaim that I am learning to drive.

I knew that I was gonna be a havoc on road. And I'm gonna make it my last. last accident.

I'm sorry.

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I will do better.

Better and better.

Move on.

Decided that its really not your fault; its mine.
If I can improve, u wouldn't have to do what u do.
So, adjust myself.

That aside, I am trying to update my phone software myself and its quite a bitch. nvm, i'll be independent and solve whatever problems that is to come. and as I was bored, I decided to google on "how to be independent". lol. And I found something which I thought I should remind myself.

" Be determined. Never doubt that you can make progress, even if there are setbacks -- advance again. Consider that progress toward your goals is how to measure your kind of success. Discover your interests and direction in life, then define your goals to get there. The person who can stop you from doing things that move toward your own goals is yourself. "

http://www.wikihow.com/Become-Independent


I need to be good enough for myself.

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Entertained much

Mon, tues, thurs, fri, sat, sun this week! Gonna have my fav lesson. Always entertained much by the slacker-instructor; he'll talk about his worst experience, best experience (seldom), daily grumbles (about work), updating phone software, rest day activities, etc. Lol. The other instructor, the stricter instructor is nice too! He reminds me of another friend of mine, kan chiong spider.

Sorted out my thinking. Shall remind myself that having a simple life is a way to have blessed life too. I know I'm afraid of not being able to meet my own expectations. and life is so unpredictable for the time to come!

Have faith in each other and work things out, together. Believe.


I will tame my temper.

A busy valentine's day

This year's valentine's day is busier than ever.

Started the morning with an interview, which did not land me in a job which I was hoping to get into, unfortunately. I just felt that there is something wrong. Well, learning to take things in my stride.

As the interview ended way earlier than I have expected it to, I went home, took a shower before going out for weeeeeeeeee~ haha. Each lesson is a new experience and there's more to watch out for. I shall admit that I'm quite disappointed that my progress is very slow. Let's hope i'll get all the things right and improve much!

After that I travelled to Han 's and to my surprise, I reached there earlier than sm. Forgot what I did there but anyway then we went to bugis and had ramen for dinner. Simple and nice! And I had coax sm into walking to have ice-cream at haji lane successfully! I heard that there's a nice ice-cream shop there that serves interesting ice-cream, like squid ink flavour and since I have not been to haji lane, I wanted to give it a shot! I'm quite disappointed by the limited number of flavours though; Tom 's Palette and Daily S coop is better, in my opinion. Or Once upon a M ilkshake, for a cozy and pretty environment. And we walked to plaza sing from there! Sm must be feeling that he should be extra nice to me that's why he agreed to walk to plaza sing with me. (Background story: he hates to walk long distance). We ended that day with neoprints and pinball at arcade. :)

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What does our friendship mean to you?

I do not understand people who do not reply to sms. WHY?
This only means that I am not important to you. Yup, thats all.

I have been thick-skinned recently, doing call-to-get-rebate kind of action and to ask a classmate who is on my fb friend list for tips for interview (when I had never talk to him face-to-face before). Thankful for tips received and hope good karma goes to him! woohoo!

I need to speak in proper english for interview. No allowance for Singlish to jeopardise my chance of presenting well in front of the interviewer. Need to do my homework!

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2012 has been good for me so far!

Went to Taiwan, met up with my old time friends, chinese new year, going to the flower exhibition are some of the activities that I started 2012 with. Let's hope that 2012 will continue to be an awesome year for me and people around me! :)

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新年 2012

今年的新年少了一些亲情的感觉。
少了大家庭热闹的气氛，多了大人们之间的矛盾。
我说过，我因为不想陷入“家庭政治”的缠局里，所以宁可不吭声，凝视着妈妈与姐姐如何摆平那一切。
看着其他朋友热热闹闹的新年大家庭庆祝会，我心里除了一点的妒忌，还有一点的惋惜，好景不长在，岁月不留人。

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Family politics

It's not difficult to arrange an activity, meal or venue. What's difficult is when politics between different people come into place. And I do not want to engage myself into any politics and thus refuse to get involved. I feel rather sad to know that this is the kind of situation we get after our grandparents passed away.

Shall cherish what I have because I'll never know what will happen next.

On a side note, long break I have for cny this year! :D

Our boyfriends

I met up with two gfs last fri and had a good time discussing what our boyfriends do- the nonsense we tolerate. Girls talk has always been an enjoyable experience. Sharing session of the good and bad experiences :)

As much as I sound irritated, I feel blessed and fortunate that you found me and I found you. Thanks for reminding me how important family is.

Went to make small cny munchie cake on Sunday. Wee~

AND, I'm not done with my packing! xp

Taiwan for New Year 2012!

Gonna briefly note down the things we did:

Day 1
We reached Changi Airport at around 5.30~6.00am, checked in our luggage and had mac breakfast. Following which we board the plane and by the time we reached tw Taoyuan Airport was around noon. Searched for the youth card registration details and free-go bus from airport to hotel (of course, and also how we should travelled from hotel back to Taoyuan on the last day). By the time we checked in to Pink Lotus Hotel was around 3~pm. We went for a steamboat lunch/dinner nearby which had 甘蔗汤 (which I don't understand because the stock didn't taste extra sweet like sugar cane juice would) and free-flow salad bar. Nightfall comes early during this time of the year and it was quite dark by the time we left the restaurant. And we went to 士林夜市。

Day 2
Exploring the hot spring facilities after breakfast
淡水 (bought the tall ice-cream, a puff full of red bean paste, ah gei and 铁蛋 )
渔人码头
Photo-taking day  ^_^v ^_^v ^_^v ^_^v
Steak, bead and soup dinner.

Day 3
Breakfast at hotel before we checked out and moved to Kingshi Hotel at Xi Men Ding.
Wanted to visit the SM Entertainment store but forgot to note down the exact address.
Walked around Taipei Main Station.
Xin wasn't feeling well so xin and jac went back to the hotel first while sm and I walked through the shops at Taipei Main Station and went to Ferris wheel! Rushed for dinner because we wanted to get back in time to queue for the only all-around transparent carriage. So scary inside! Viewed the night scenery of Taipei. Bought Digimon Movie 1. Legs gave way so we went back to have dim sum supper.

Day 4
Tour Taipei day! We went to the SM Entertainment and bought the rest of the digimon movies (I find it funny that when others go SM Entertainment store to buy merchandise for their idols, we were there to buy digimon cartoon movies). Next, we went to J ay Chou's Secret Theme restaurant! wee~ One of my fav movies. :) Following that was the visit to Taipei 101 and 饶河夜市。

Day 5
Originally planned to go Jiu Fen but it was raining all morning and the weather forecast predicted that there will be 80% chance of rain.Thus, we started our morning with k-singing at party world. I find it nice that there is a personal toilet attached to the room. Funny that Xin and sm decrypted that taiwan "han yu pin yin" into our chinese "han yu pin yin". This made our finding for songs easier. Next, we went to watch the guard changing ceremony and ding tai feng for lunch/dinner. Ended our last night by scouting food at 士林夜市 。

Day 6 (Last day)
Sm and I went back to Taipei Main Station to look for the souvenir keychains and we had our last of 50 lan2 milk tea and food before we went back to xi men ding to do the last minute shopping. Bought Ah Zong Mian Xian to airport to eat. Much comfort from the warm food :) Bought bread as well. Cold feet on the airplane. Had supper at mac before we left.


We will learn from our mistakes and improve together, love. <3
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