Awesomest instructor

It had been a good drive today. I hope that this will be my last session of practice and the awesomest instructor actually took the effort to exchange with another instructor to go through with me my last session!

It goes like this: I am supposed to get a reminder in the morning to remind me about the session that I booked for the day and after I checked, I know it is not 77 so (ARGH) it will be another instructor. I waved to this awesome instructor at the waiting area (I'm always friendly to this and another instructor because they are also friendly to me!), thinking that he will pick up another student. However, he waved and told me to get nearer to the car, before telling me to get in. And he said he exchanged with the other instructor because this will be my last session. Okay to explain why, I would really prefer this instructor because he is humourous and he pinpoints the fatal mistake. Anyway, we did a revision of one round and I made two fatal mistakes and a couple of other mistakes. But it is okay because I would know the problem now and not make the same mistake again in my test (self-note: turn right into the right lane for number 3 and not turn together with another car side-by-side). And since this instructor is good friend with another instructor who I know is nice, I got to say a proper hi and bye to him while he was waiting for his student too. I also got to park in a drizzle, something I have always wondered about. A complete last session. Grateful for the effort from them. So nice right!

I'll be in the six and not the one!

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Graduation (soon)

Browsing through the numerous graduation photos on my facebook news feed makes me wonder how will my graduation ceremony be like. Plain, I guess. Not that many friends I have made, but enough to survive, enough to be grateful about. Without them I would miss out the important notifications, reminders, etc. I didn't do very well for people management and my time management. I'm glad that somehow I ended up in a subject I like. Grateful much, for everyone who had been there when I needed you. Bitter sweet. :')

*Sudden change of emotions*
And yes I am still waiting for the email to inform us to rent/buy our graduation gown! And still looking for my white long sleeves shirt! (As you can see) excited much! :)




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Different perspectives

If we could all see from each other's perspective, there would be less conflict over mis-communication.

This sudden realisation calms me down from being an angry kid to a more logical (or so i think) me. But well, we will still need a lot of patience and understanding to accept each other's viewpoint, I guess. A long way to go. Friends, and our different characters.

Thanks for always being there to sort out my thread of thoughts no matter how bad my tantrum went.

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MC x 2

Fever made me decided that I really needed a break. Took two days of MC and back to work tmr. Much to do tmr and then its sat and its driving (after so long!). Pretty excited! Something to keep me going for the week!
I need to pour my feelings into a book. lol. Looking for that book!
and a water bottle to replace my three-years-old water bottle which had kept me going at work and in school. That warm feeling it emits in chilling lecture rooms that almost seem as if they were set on freezing us to death.


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Missing out that something

I'm still pretty much clueless as to what my career path will be. Searching for that opportunity. I guess most people who have just graduated pretty much face the same scenario.

I had a stay home weekend these two days- went to sm's house for the making of rice dumpling followed by Ticket to ride board game. swam and made pasta followed by a stay-at-home-and-sleep afternoon. Becoming a pig. lol.

Back to work tmr!

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Would you be there?

I have just finished typing a  very long fb msg to two friends to explain and apologise for my behaviour. I snapped at them. I am stressed about my life and I didn't take jokes well at that point in time they spoke and evil words came gushing out (in the form of messages) from me. They were angry and disappointed.

A million times I told myself I ought to be logical and reasonable and not be sensitive to tiny little things and this time the evil in me took over me and snapped.

And I recalled this song one of these friends send me before: "Would you be there?"

Will you forgive me no matter what I've said?

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Sun & Joy

Photo from last last weekend. Love cycling at ecp. Love the sun and the cloud.
It's time to explore the outdoors again! :)
Bare your sole next!
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Need

Because I'll need to learn to take things in my stride; To accept the reality.

Leisure (W. H. Davies)

WHAT is this life if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.




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May day

It was three days of agony at work to realise what I was not be able to achieve. I felt disappointed with myself. And that I had over-estimated myself. Maybe its a good thing that I did not get into crazy work lifestyle in huge companies. But.. disappointment is the word.

Put that aside, I had three post-exams gathering since labour day. Girls singing out (crazily) had never felt so good. Singing is the expression of the soul. I appreciate the simple surprise planned, its the thoughts that count and I'm touched. :) Another one was a walk around Esplanade, one of my fav places in sg, though there's really nothing much to do, was simple dinner and walking around. Recalled something about planning for overseas trip and I agree that an awareness of of the feelings of others is important. and yay I'll be receiving a gel eyeliner as present! let's hope I'll find it easy to use. hehehe. Third gathering: It hit me that the person I missed is the person in my memory and not really you. My very-forgetful brain.. Awkwardness. I should stop trying to imagine that a person is better/worse than he/she is. Take life as it is and move on.

Driving today was awesome! Although I have made enough mistakes today to fail, I felt good about the whole thing. Let's hope it stays this way and wish me luck in getting a good time for driving test! (and it's two months of waiting time. -_- ) Had a whole lot of evil laughter today! HAHAHA. =P

I feel sad when we quarrel about things everytime. However after every argument, I feel glad that I found you who is willing to stick with me to solve the problems together. Thank you and thank fate to have let me meet you. :)

<<random pic i found that i drew. >>

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Whining

I. Still. Have. Not. Secure. Another. Job. Rawrrrrrrrrr.

Politics at work, trying not to step on any mine but I think I did, accidentally. Peace. It's difficult to be nice to everyone. Still manageable I guess. Anyway back-stabbers won't tell u they have stabbed u on the back so I have no way of telling. Just focus on my job. Still doing okay, fortunately.

I had a couple of weird dreams recently, I felt much for a particular one because it thought me to think about what "responsibilities" guys have in a relationship. I felt that it's the nicer part of me trying to remind me not to be too mean to sm. Oops. Okay, point taken.

Many places I wish to visit. Somehow the places just add up and there's a long list. Let's see how I plan my time and whether I can get people out. Wee~

Driving had been bad. So many bad habits to change. Omg. $.$ nevertheless, it has been a really good experience.

锦上添花，不如雪中送炭。

Plus U ltra leads us further

I went back to j j with sm a few days ago, randomly to visit his teachers. (The emphasise is because I always have the feeling that my tutors never liked me for my poor results and I wasn't the shiny star in my class. Anyway I don't like some tutors too.)

We spoke to his form teacher, a chatty PHD-holder who tried to persuade sm into joining the teaching career and teach j c students. It felt funny how he was so friendly to us.

We saw another sm's teacher, who I look up to. Throughout the two years of my j c life and I wished that he was my phy tutor. He's humourous, takes pride in teaching, and makes concepts clear! Eww.. And he remembers me as sm's gf because we went back together before ! That made my day. :) The working life of this teacher is different from the PHD teacher because he ends work at 7+pm, but seems to find teaching career satisfying..

I tried to look for my own form teacher but she's not around so I guess not fated to see her. To be honest, I'm afraid that she will drop insensitive remarks because she has always emphasised on the importance of going to local uni and she's a PHD holder as well (It felt as if j c level chemistry/studies had never been too hard for her to understand) Nevertheless, she was kind to help me between the period of time from prelim to a - level and I respect her for that. Logical teacher. Maybe I should think about going to see her again.

I really wonder if sm is gonna go into teaching, hahahaha..

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Choices

Life is about making choices that mattered to you. Chat with instructor taught me more than driving skills. And I think i'm evil in some of my remarks. OKAY. Shall not be so evil. And I realised humour is such a beautiful thing. Having empathy is such a nice trait too.

Listening and finding out more about the family of these two instructors made me realised that happy family can be maintained if one put in hardwork. I wonder how my future will be in the future after I get married. And I think men with a family to work hard for are so charming.

Feels weird to have my driving lesson cut down to only one or two per week.


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Walking down the Memory Lane

I spent 4 hours of my time last night, not to spend time with friends but to sort out all the cards and letters I have received thus far. The numerous letters that I exchanged with my friends during secondary school days reminded me of the silly teenage days I had. I would be a different me if I wasn't in g e ss.

I learnt so much from all my friends, good or bad, during those days. It is very sweet to read the letters/cards again, knowing that there's always someone there for me, even though I have my irritating side. ewww.. There were also funny quarrel letters that we sent each other to pin-point the unhappiness we had for each other for some. And after reading them, I'm more certain than ever to keep friends who stayed by me through thick and thin.

Thankful much. :') Meaningful sat night.

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Random memory of Taiwan trip

Just recalled an incident in Taiwan which I locked and changed my luggage lock (unknowingly) in the hotel room. And of cos I was in a panic to solve the lock because I needed to take something from the luggage bag before we head out for the day. I was fortunate to have sm to logically try the code one by one and he solved it in after around 10min.

This incident made me realized that each of us makes silly mistakes, and we need each other to overcome each other's shortcoming.

We need to learn from each unfortunate accident/incident and become a better person. This should be the conclusion for my last blog post. And the twist of this story is that I did an illogical action by buying the first 4D ticket of my lifetime. Lol. :)

Zoooooooooooo. And I love giraffe and the girls of cos! :)

Okay, when I'm not.

It's not so bad if it is a once-off feeling; It's bad when it is a feeling of remorse, guilt and feeling of failure as if I can never do better and beat my old self. I used to look forward to each session of driving and each served as a motivation for me to carry on with my mundane life. Unfortunately, it has since became a burden that I'm holding on. But I'm not gonna let this continue. Never ever.

I didn't want to write about driving because I was afraid that I'll jinx it somehow, as if that someone above will cast out my name if I were to proclaim that I am learning to drive.

I knew that I was gonna be a havoc on road. And I'm gonna make it my last. last accident.

I'm sorry.

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I will do better.

Better and better.

Move on.

Decided that its really not your fault; its mine.
If I can improve, u wouldn't have to do what u do.
So, adjust myself.

That aside, I am trying to update my phone software myself and its quite a bitch. nvm, i'll be independent and solve whatever problems that is to come. and as I was bored, I decided to google on "how to be independent". lol. And I found something which I thought I should remind myself.

" Be determined. Never doubt that you can make progress, even if there are setbacks -- advance again. Consider that progress toward your goals is how to measure your kind of success. Discover your interests and direction in life, then define your goals to get there. The person who can stop you from doing things that move toward your own goals is yourself. "

http://www.wikihow.com/Become-Independent


I need to be good enough for myself.

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Entertained much

Mon, tues, thurs, fri, sat, sun this week! Gonna have my fav lesson. Always entertained much by the slacker-instructor; he'll talk about his worst experience, best experience (seldom), daily grumbles (about work), updating phone software, rest day activities, etc. Lol. The other instructor, the stricter instructor is nice too! He reminds me of another friend of mine, kan chiong spider.

Sorted out my thinking. Shall remind myself that having a simple life is a way to have blessed life too. I know I'm afraid of not being able to meet my own expectations. and life is so unpredictable for the time to come!

Have faith in each other and work things out, together. Believe.


I will tame my temper.

A busy valentine's day

This year's valentine's day is busier than ever.

Started the morning with an interview, which did not land me in a job which I was hoping to get into, unfortunately. I just felt that there is something wrong. Well, learning to take things in my stride.

As the interview ended way earlier than I have expected it to, I went home, took a shower before going out for weeeeeeeeee~ haha. Each lesson is a new experience and there's more to watch out for. I shall admit that I'm quite disappointed that my progress is very slow. Let's hope i'll get all the things right and improve much!

After that I travelled to Han 's and to my surprise, I reached there earlier than sm. Forgot what I did there but anyway then we went to bugis and had ramen for dinner. Simple and nice! And I had coax sm into walking to have ice-cream at haji lane successfully! I heard that there's a nice ice-cream shop there that serves interesting ice-cream, like squid ink flavour and since I have not been to haji lane, I wanted to give it a shot! I'm quite disappointed by the limited number of flavours though; Tom 's Palette and Daily S coop is better, in my opinion. Or Once upon a M ilkshake, for a cozy and pretty environment. And we walked to plaza sing from there! Sm must be feeling that he should be extra nice to me that's why he agreed to walk to plaza sing with me. (Background story: he hates to walk long distance). We ended that day with neoprints and pinball at arcade. :)

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What does our friendship mean to you?

I do not understand people who do not reply to sms. WHY?
This only means that I am not important to you. Yup, thats all.

I have been thick-skinned recently, doing call-to-get-rebate kind of action and to ask a classmate who is on my fb friend list for tips for interview (when I had never talk to him face-to-face before). Thankful for tips received and hope good karma goes to him! woohoo!

I need to speak in proper english for interview. No allowance for Singlish to jeopardise my chance of presenting well in front of the interviewer. Need to do my homework!

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2012 has been good for me so far!

Went to Taiwan, met up with my old time friends, chinese new year, going to the flower exhibition are some of the activities that I started 2012 with. Let's hope that 2012 will continue to be an awesome year for me and people around me! :)

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