The Power; Love

It was my first time attending a wedding meal, and whats more, it was in Malaysia. It felt nice to give blessings to the young couple and see the pretty wedding photos! It is a promise of a lifetime and I hope everything will go well for this newlywed.

Disagreements and quarrels are inevitable in a relationship. What's important is the commitment to hold on to each other no matter what, and to give and take in a relationship. Happy anniversary to us. It felt like everything just happened yesterday; how we got to know each other, how we went through the JC days, NS days, my university days, my working life, your university days. I know I may have been a little too hot-tempered at times and you have got your weakness too but we shall get through everything together alright? I'll work on my listening skills and you should work on your communication skills. lol. Tough journey ahead but I'm glad to have you with me on this journey.

Decisions decisions decisions. I need to decide what kind of job I want next. Remuneration, work scope, prospects, work-life balance, etc. Is there such thing as an ideal job? I guess everyone just need to make the best out of things. I need a bigger brain. ooooooops.

Happy Children's Day! Stay young at heart and never ever let life brings you down. <3

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Where's my shore?

I dreamt of attending driving lesson, as if it is May 2012 now and I am still in the oh-I-can-slack mode. Then I woke up and realise that I have not accomplished much these few months.

One of the times I feel uneasy about my present.

Time flies, didn't it?

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Another new Beginning

Finally, after three photo taking sessions and graduation ceremony, it struck slow me that I have graduated. No more report and presentation woes in school. No more milk tea during break time for lessons. No more rushing to class after work. Oh well but I'm still studying so yes to more mugging days ahead!

It has not been easy adapting these three and a half years. What a great relief that I have finally completed this.

To friends who struck with me these few years, I'm sure you have heard enough of my grumbles. Thank you for going through this with me. Thank you for tolerating my occasional weirdness and outburst of frustration.

And to you my bf, thanks for always encouraging me and assuring me that it's okay for me to be me.

My very pretty and expensive bear! ^^

Unfortunately, I still have no idea where I'm heading to now.
Gonna need some luck and directions!

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Dream a little dream

And then again, I am feeling low about not getting any answers, While I was hoping for some guidance somehow, from someone up there, I dreamt of going back to school for teachers' day. I met my teacher and somehow seeing him replenished my hope for life.

Thanks.

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No matter what

To have seen how some others handled their relationships and still be steadfast in my view for my loved ones, no matter what.


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Thank you July

Thank you July for this memory of me passing my driving test.
And showing me the possibility of things.
And reminding me how important it is to maintain a relationship to keep it going.
And how there are still nice people in this world.

And I'm (finally) gonna graduate officially in my graduation ceremony in Aug! :)

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Stay or go

Hello world!

I don't know what's there for me out there. What I know is that I have decisions to make.
The next step.


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Living in joy

I still can't really come to terms with the fact that I passed. I'm lucky to be in the group I'm in, to have managed to book that particular test session with that tester and had a regular instructor as my warm-up instructor. Almost everything that I went through in the warm-up session came up. I wake up on some days wondering if I really did pass.

However when I realised that I won't be able to drive for some time I kind of feel sad. Eww.. :(

Next stage in life but really grateful for everything! I'll remember Teachers' Day! :)


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A happy ending

I have so much to say about driving but thought perhaps I should write them in my diary.

Just, awesome.

Thankful for all the effort especially for the last session and the warm up session. :')

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Awesomest instructor

It had been a good drive today. I hope that this will be my last session of practice and the awesomest instructor actually took the effort to exchange with another instructor to go through with me my last session!

It goes like this: I am supposed to get a reminder in the morning to remind me about the session that I booked for the day and after I checked, I know it is not 77 so (ARGH) it will be another instructor. I waved to this awesome instructor at the waiting area (I'm always friendly to this and another instructor because they are also friendly to me!), thinking that he will pick up another student. However, he waved and told me to get nearer to the car, before telling me to get in. And he said he exchanged with the other instructor because this will be my last session. Okay to explain why, I would really prefer this instructor because he is humourous and he pinpoints the fatal mistake. Anyway, we did a revision of one round and I made two fatal mistakes and a couple of other mistakes. But it is okay because I would know the problem now and not make the same mistake again in my test (self-note: turn right into the right lane for number 3 and not turn together with another car side-by-side). And since this instructor is good friend with another instructor who I know is nice, I got to say a proper hi and bye to him while he was waiting for his student too. I also got to park in a drizzle, something I have always wondered about. A complete last session. Grateful for the effort from them. So nice right!

I'll be in the six and not the one!

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Graduation (soon)

Browsing through the numerous graduation photos on my facebook news feed makes me wonder how will my graduation ceremony be like. Plain, I guess. Not that many friends I have made, but enough to survive, enough to be grateful about. Without them I would miss out the important notifications, reminders, etc. I didn't do very well for people management and my time management. I'm glad that somehow I ended up in a subject I like. Grateful much, for everyone who had been there when I needed you. Bitter sweet. :')

*Sudden change of emotions*
And yes I am still waiting for the email to inform us to rent/buy our graduation gown! And still looking for my white long sleeves shirt! (As you can see) excited much! :)




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Different perspectives

If we could all see from each other's perspective, there would be less conflict over mis-communication.

This sudden realisation calms me down from being an angry kid to a more logical (or so i think) me. But well, we will still need a lot of patience and understanding to accept each other's viewpoint, I guess. A long way to go. Friends, and our different characters.

Thanks for always being there to sort out my thread of thoughts no matter how bad my tantrum went.

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MC x 2

Fever made me decided that I really needed a break. Took two days of MC and back to work tmr. Much to do tmr and then its sat and its driving (after so long!). Pretty excited! Something to keep me going for the week!
I need to pour my feelings into a book. lol. Looking for that book!
and a water bottle to replace my three-years-old water bottle which had kept me going at work and in school. That warm feeling it emits in chilling lecture rooms that almost seem as if they were set on freezing us to death.


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Missing out that something

I'm still pretty much clueless as to what my career path will be. Searching for that opportunity. I guess most people who have just graduated pretty much face the same scenario.

I had a stay home weekend these two days- went to sm's house for the making of rice dumpling followed by Ticket to ride board game. swam and made pasta followed by a stay-at-home-and-sleep afternoon. Becoming a pig. lol.

Back to work tmr!

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Would you be there?

I have just finished typing a  very long fb msg to two friends to explain and apologise for my behaviour. I snapped at them. I am stressed about my life and I didn't take jokes well at that point in time they spoke and evil words came gushing out (in the form of messages) from me. They were angry and disappointed.

A million times I told myself I ought to be logical and reasonable and not be sensitive to tiny little things and this time the evil in me took over me and snapped.

And I recalled this song one of these friends send me before: "Would you be there?"

Will you forgive me no matter what I've said?

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Sun & Joy

Photo from last last weekend. Love cycling at ecp. Love the sun and the cloud.
It's time to explore the outdoors again! :)
Bare your sole next!
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Need

Because I'll need to learn to take things in my stride; To accept the reality.

Leisure (W. H. Davies)

WHAT is this life if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.




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May day

It was three days of agony at work to realise what I was not be able to achieve. I felt disappointed with myself. And that I had over-estimated myself. Maybe its a good thing that I did not get into crazy work lifestyle in huge companies. But.. disappointment is the word.

Put that aside, I had three post-exams gathering since labour day. Girls singing out (crazily) had never felt so good. Singing is the expression of the soul. I appreciate the simple surprise planned, its the thoughts that count and I'm touched. :) Another one was a walk around Esplanade, one of my fav places in sg, though there's really nothing much to do, was simple dinner and walking around. Recalled something about planning for overseas trip and I agree that an awareness of of the feelings of others is important. and yay I'll be receiving a gel eyeliner as present! let's hope I'll find it easy to use. hehehe. Third gathering: It hit me that the person I missed is the person in my memory and not really you. My very-forgetful brain.. Awkwardness. I should stop trying to imagine that a person is better/worse than he/she is. Take life as it is and move on.

Driving today was awesome! Although I have made enough mistakes today to fail, I felt good about the whole thing. Let's hope it stays this way and wish me luck in getting a good time for driving test! (and it's two months of waiting time. -_- ) Had a whole lot of evil laughter today! HAHAHA. =P

I feel sad when we quarrel about things everytime. However after every argument, I feel glad that I found you who is willing to stick with me to solve the problems together. Thank you and thank fate to have let me meet you. :)

<<random pic i found that i drew. >>

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Whining

I. Still. Have. Not. Secure. Another. Job. Rawrrrrrrrrr.

Politics at work, trying not to step on any mine but I think I did, accidentally. Peace. It's difficult to be nice to everyone. Still manageable I guess. Anyway back-stabbers won't tell u they have stabbed u on the back so I have no way of telling. Just focus on my job. Still doing okay, fortunately.

I had a couple of weird dreams recently, I felt much for a particular one because it thought me to think about what "responsibilities" guys have in a relationship. I felt that it's the nicer part of me trying to remind me not to be too mean to sm. Oops. Okay, point taken.

Many places I wish to visit. Somehow the places just add up and there's a long list. Let's see how I plan my time and whether I can get people out. Wee~

Driving had been bad. So many bad habits to change. Omg. $.$ nevertheless, it has been a really good experience.

锦上添花，不如雪中送炭。

Plus U ltra leads us further

I went back to j j with sm a few days ago, randomly to visit his teachers. (The emphasise is because I always have the feeling that my tutors never liked me for my poor results and I wasn't the shiny star in my class. Anyway I don't like some tutors too.)

We spoke to his form teacher, a chatty PHD-holder who tried to persuade sm into joining the teaching career and teach j c students. It felt funny how he was so friendly to us.

We saw another sm's teacher, who I look up to. Throughout the two years of my j c life and I wished that he was my phy tutor. He's humourous, takes pride in teaching, and makes concepts clear! Eww.. And he remembers me as sm's gf because we went back together before ! That made my day. :) The working life of this teacher is different from the PHD teacher because he ends work at 7+pm, but seems to find teaching career satisfying..

I tried to look for my own form teacher but she's not around so I guess not fated to see her. To be honest, I'm afraid that she will drop insensitive remarks because she has always emphasised on the importance of going to local uni and she's a PHD holder as well (It felt as if j c level chemistry/studies had never been too hard for her to understand) Nevertheless, she was kind to help me between the period of time from prelim to a - level and I respect her for that. Logical teacher. Maybe I should think about going to see her again.

I really wonder if sm is gonna go into teaching, hahahaha..

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