Prayers answered

Or well, half answered. Very grateful. :)

I'm starting to feel stressed already. :(

Looking forward to the trip with family :)

Thank you for giving me encouragements when I need them; for believing in me and making me believe in myself :')

Okay, I should do a proper update. I'm done with my paper and let's wait and see how I fare. Tried my best. And I should change my bad habit of taking my own sweet time during exam to do the questions. I'm amused that there's mineral water in the exam hall for candidates, though I didn't take any. I'm gonna have a very happening long weekend. Pray to my grandma, sushi, (maybe) camping, singing, tennis, and gonna go back office for one day to do data entry.

In a blink of an eye, it has been three years. I hope you are in a better place now. :)

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I can't stand having depressing post!

Having depressing sounding post will only remind me of the sad things that happened and put my sad emotions on repeat-mode. I'll say no. :)

So here goes, I have just finished our almost weekly tennis session and feeling happy that somehow we got together and I can exercise regularly! I'm a noob in it. Looking forward to improving! I love how it is funny and I can laugh at all the funny incidents during tennis. All the random stupid stuffs. And I will laugh in a very unglam manner (sorry but this is me. lol.).

C pa exams in about ten days and I'm still blur. Buck up buck up! Try my best lo.

Job search, argh........ I'm. still. looking. I feel like a stupid idiot who is forever looking for job. Maybe I'll go pray in the temple after my exams for some directions.

Looking forward to nov and dec! Fav month dec when I can meet up with all my friends! and chalet to come (hope the person booking will book in time!) ! :)

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The sad truth

We learn to be more selfish as we grow older, don't we all do?

Learn to protect ourselves in this vicious city jungle, to draw a clear line between you and me. Recent experience of juggling duties of a colleague while she goes on leave reminded me of this complicated world I am in. Thin lines between gossip, back-stabbing and just expressing our views. Ironic when A tells B something, reminding him not to tell D, but B passes it on to C who in turn passes the message on to D. Too bad for A. You have trusted the wrong guy.

Maybe this is the reason why it gets more difficult to make friends while we grow older. Sad right? Not to mention we get more opinionated as we grow older. The "I'm right and You're wrong" mentality. How many of us could truly be confident and at the same time receptive about the ideas of others? I'm learning to be one.

Still looking for a suitable job. Maybe I'm too choosy.
Good luck, please come to me *pray*

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The Power; Love

It was my first time attending a wedding meal, and whats more, it was in Malaysia. It felt nice to give blessings to the young couple and see the pretty wedding photos! It is a promise of a lifetime and I hope everything will go well for this newlywed.

Disagreements and quarrels are inevitable in a relationship. What's important is the commitment to hold on to each other no matter what, and to give and take in a relationship. Happy anniversary to us. It felt like everything just happened yesterday; how we got to know each other, how we went through the JC days, NS days, my university days, my working life, your university days. I know I may have been a little too hot-tempered at times and you have got your weakness too but we shall get through everything together alright? I'll work on my listening skills and you should work on your communication skills. lol. Tough journey ahead but I'm glad to have you with me on this journey.

Decisions decisions decisions. I need to decide what kind of job I want next. Remuneration, work scope, prospects, work-life balance, etc. Is there such thing as an ideal job? I guess everyone just need to make the best out of things. I need a bigger brain. ooooooops.

Happy Children's Day! Stay young at heart and never ever let life brings you down. <3

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Where's my shore?

I dreamt of attending driving lesson, as if it is May 2012 now and I am still in the oh-I-can-slack mode. Then I woke up and realise that I have not accomplished much these few months.

One of the times I feel uneasy about my present.

Time flies, didn't it?

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Another new Beginning

Finally, after three photo taking sessions and graduation ceremony, it struck slow me that I have graduated. No more report and presentation woes in school. No more milk tea during break time for lessons. No more rushing to class after work. Oh well but I'm still studying so yes to more mugging days ahead!

It has not been easy adapting these three and a half years. What a great relief that I have finally completed this.

To friends who struck with me these few years, I'm sure you have heard enough of my grumbles. Thank you for going through this with me. Thank you for tolerating my occasional weirdness and outburst of frustration.

And to you my bf, thanks for always encouraging me and assuring me that it's okay for me to be me.

My very pretty and expensive bear! ^^

Unfortunately, I still have no idea where I'm heading to now.
Gonna need some luck and directions!

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Dream a little dream

And then again, I am feeling low about not getting any answers, While I was hoping for some guidance somehow, from someone up there, I dreamt of going back to school for teachers' day. I met my teacher and somehow seeing him replenished my hope for life.

Thanks.

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No matter what

To have seen how some others handled their relationships and still be steadfast in my view for my loved ones, no matter what.


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Thank you July

Thank you July for this memory of me passing my driving test.
And showing me the possibility of things.
And reminding me how important it is to maintain a relationship to keep it going.
And how there are still nice people in this world.

And I'm (finally) gonna graduate officially in my graduation ceremony in Aug! :)

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Stay or go

Hello world!

I don't know what's there for me out there. What I know is that I have decisions to make.
The next step.


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Living in joy

I still can't really come to terms with the fact that I passed. I'm lucky to be in the group I'm in, to have managed to book that particular test session with that tester and had a regular instructor as my warm-up instructor. Almost everything that I went through in the warm-up session came up. I wake up on some days wondering if I really did pass.

However when I realised that I won't be able to drive for some time I kind of feel sad. Eww.. :(

Next stage in life but really grateful for everything! I'll remember Teachers' Day! :)


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A happy ending

I have so much to say about driving but thought perhaps I should write them in my diary.

Just, awesome.

Thankful for all the effort especially for the last session and the warm up session. :')

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Awesomest instructor

It had been a good drive today. I hope that this will be my last session of practice and the awesomest instructor actually took the effort to exchange with another instructor to go through with me my last session!

It goes like this: I am supposed to get a reminder in the morning to remind me about the session that I booked for the day and after I checked, I know it is not 77 so (ARGH) it will be another instructor. I waved to this awesome instructor at the waiting area (I'm always friendly to this and another instructor because they are also friendly to me!), thinking that he will pick up another student. However, he waved and told me to get nearer to the car, before telling me to get in. And he said he exchanged with the other instructor because this will be my last session. Okay to explain why, I would really prefer this instructor because he is humourous and he pinpoints the fatal mistake. Anyway, we did a revision of one round and I made two fatal mistakes and a couple of other mistakes. But it is okay because I would know the problem now and not make the same mistake again in my test (self-note: turn right into the right lane for number 3 and not turn together with another car side-by-side). And since this instructor is good friend with another instructor who I know is nice, I got to say a proper hi and bye to him while he was waiting for his student too. I also got to park in a drizzle, something I have always wondered about. A complete last session. Grateful for the effort from them. So nice right!

I'll be in the six and not the one!

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Graduation (soon)

Browsing through the numerous graduation photos on my facebook news feed makes me wonder how will my graduation ceremony be like. Plain, I guess. Not that many friends I have made, but enough to survive, enough to be grateful about. Without them I would miss out the important notifications, reminders, etc. I didn't do very well for people management and my time management. I'm glad that somehow I ended up in a subject I like. Grateful much, for everyone who had been there when I needed you. Bitter sweet. :')

*Sudden change of emotions*
And yes I am still waiting for the email to inform us to rent/buy our graduation gown! And still looking for my white long sleeves shirt! (As you can see) excited much! :)




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Different perspectives

If we could all see from each other's perspective, there would be less conflict over mis-communication.

This sudden realisation calms me down from being an angry kid to a more logical (or so i think) me. But well, we will still need a lot of patience and understanding to accept each other's viewpoint, I guess. A long way to go. Friends, and our different characters.

Thanks for always being there to sort out my thread of thoughts no matter how bad my tantrum went.

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MC x 2

Fever made me decided that I really needed a break. Took two days of MC and back to work tmr. Much to do tmr and then its sat and its driving (after so long!). Pretty excited! Something to keep me going for the week!
I need to pour my feelings into a book. lol. Looking for that book!
and a water bottle to replace my three-years-old water bottle which had kept me going at work and in school. That warm feeling it emits in chilling lecture rooms that almost seem as if they were set on freezing us to death.


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Missing out that something

I'm still pretty much clueless as to what my career path will be. Searching for that opportunity. I guess most people who have just graduated pretty much face the same scenario.

I had a stay home weekend these two days- went to sm's house for the making of rice dumpling followed by Ticket to ride board game. swam and made pasta followed by a stay-at-home-and-sleep afternoon. Becoming a pig. lol.

Back to work tmr!

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Would you be there?

I have just finished typing a  very long fb msg to two friends to explain and apologise for my behaviour. I snapped at them. I am stressed about my life and I didn't take jokes well at that point in time they spoke and evil words came gushing out (in the form of messages) from me. They were angry and disappointed.

A million times I told myself I ought to be logical and reasonable and not be sensitive to tiny little things and this time the evil in me took over me and snapped.

And I recalled this song one of these friends send me before: "Would you be there?"

Will you forgive me no matter what I've said?

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Sun & Joy

Photo from last last weekend. Love cycling at ecp. Love the sun and the cloud.
It's time to explore the outdoors again! :)
Bare your sole next!
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Need

Because I'll need to learn to take things in my stride; To accept the reality.

Leisure (W. H. Davies)

WHAT is this life if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,
And stare as long as sheep and cows:
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night:
No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance:
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began?
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.




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